Reneé Rapp preferences and oneshots

Does anyone know me?

Y/n pov:
I mindlessly stared infront of me, my heart heavy with a pain i couldnt describe. I had no origin for this pain, but it was there and it was constant; especially recently.

Many scenarios led me to realise that no one really knew who i was. Even me. I had been a people pleaser my whole life, which lead me to shaping my personality to fit the people/person around me, and now i had no real me. No personality i can say thats me, no hobby that makes me happy, no music i make that i can say i feel that, because i cant tell what my real emotions are.

Alot of new people have come into my life recently, meaning alot of new questions: what is your favourite colour?, what do you like do?, why did you write this song? And for each and every question i have no genuine answer. Nothing feels like me. I dont even know me. I never have.

A bang broke me out of my daze,
"Y/n!! Open the door bitch!!" I heard, yep thats reneé,
"Give me a second nae!" I slowly got of the sofa grabbing the plate of food, still full, which represents the amount of food I've eaten in the past few days.

I got myself ready before, knowing reneé was coming over, because i had to hide my tired exterior. I muster the best fake smile i could before opening the door.

"Heyyy baby!!" Reneé said pulling me into a hug, i hugged back relaxing in her arms,
"Hey reneé." I sighed,
"You okay mama?" She asked pulling back, but keeping her hands on my waist, looking into my eyes,
"Yeah. You okay nae?"
"Im good thankyou, i brought you a drink." She says pulling a pepsi out her bag,
"Oh my god thankyouuu i love youu!" I said kissing her cheek. "Come on lets watch a movie!" I said pulling her upstairs,
"What are we watching?"
"Hmm i was thinking the breakfast club, then Sweeney todd and thenn mean girls anddd i havent planned beyond that.." i finished with a slight giggle.
"That sounds perfect mama." Reneé said as i dragged her to my bedroom.

Me and reneé arent 'dating' but we arent friends, we have had sex, we go on dates, we dont see other people, but we haven't asked 'the question' yet, and we are just enjoying the time we have right now.

"Okay you sit on the bed and put on the movie, ill get us comfier clothes." Reneé said,
"Thankyou and nae-"
"Yeah?" She popped her head out my closet,
"Can you get me the hoodie you left, your grey one, its hung with my hoodies." I smiled,
"Ofcourse, but im taking one of yours."
"Deal"

Once we got into our sweats, reneé sat next to me on the bed, settling her arm around my shoulders, pulling me into her,
"You sure you're okay baby?" Reneé asked again, was i not hiding it very well?
"Yeah im good why're you asking nae?"
"I'm just making sure hun, funnily enough i kinda care about you."
"Damn you sound like you like me reneé rapp?"
"I do like you y/n y/l/n", i looked up at her leaning in slowly to kiss her slowly,
"You're my girlfriend." Reneé stated after we pulled away,
"Hmm i dont remember you asking?"
"Thats cos i didnt i told you." She kissed my lips, "you're mine."
"Yes ma'am" i said climbing on to her so im straddling her lap, i held her face in my hands staring at her,
"You're missing the movie y/n." Reneé said with a smile,
"I dont care," i said admiring her, "okay thats sort of a lie, the breakfast should never be ignored in any circumstance, but in this instance its okay." I giggled, reneé placed her hands on my hips, squeezing them gently,
"You're so pretty baby," she whispered, leaning in to kiss me,
"You're prettier nae." I stated.
"Shut up", she lifted a hand to caress my jaw, and she pulled me into another kiss.

The movie came to an end as i layed my back against reneé's back her arms around my waist,
"Hun, i gotta go to the bathroom,"
"Okay" i said as i moved so reneé could get up,
"Pop the next movie on i wont be long," reneé said kissing the crown of my head,

Reneé pov:
I entered the bathroom looking in the mirror trying to hide my smile, the girl in the next room is all i have wanted it feels surreal that shes mine.

As i washed my hands, i couldnt help, but think about y/n, there is something off i know it, i know her i can tell.

My curiosity got the better as i opened the cupboard above the sink, as i opened it i saw a few skin care producs, but the bottles of pills is what caught my eye one clearly read, paracetamol, which from y/n i learnt is the british painkiller the other was i harder to read.

I picked it up carefully so it doesnt rattle, once i could read it my heart sank, antidepressants. I knew y/n struggled she had mentioned it before, but i didnt think it was this bad.

"Reneé! You okay love? You've been a while!" I heard through the door,
"Ye-" i coughed trying to regain my voice, "yeah, im good baby give me a second." I quickly closed the cupboard, composing myself.

I unlocked the bathroom door, revealing y/n standing there with a confused face,
"You sure you good nae?" She asked as i came through the door. I just walked towards her pulling her tightly into me,
"I got you mama." I whispered into her hair, before kissing her head.
"Huh?" She asked trying to act confused, but I could tell she knew what this was about,

"It's okay y/n. Im here for you.", i walked backwards towards the bed, lifting her up so she is in my arms, then i slowly layed down with her still in my arms.

I felt her begin to shake and tears fell down my neck,
"I dont know who i am reneé." She said broken,

"You may not but i do, i see you change to please everyone, but you are consistently you with your family and your pets and with me. With all those people slash animals, you are you and you're beautiful. That is you."
She began to sob, hugging me tighter.

"I got you."

A/n: That was quite long (thats what she said) anywayyyy vote/requests <3

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