What my mind speak

The letter

AN: hi guys!! So I was randomly clicking folders n my phone when I suddenly saw this letter. I remembered that I made it when I was still in high school but I don't know why I entitled it "the unfinished letter".

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To the one I have always loved,
Hi! You know what? I was thinking that maybe we can be friends... or maybe not just friends... can we be more than friends? Please?

I don't really know what's gotten into me. All I do is look at you from a far ... so if you feel like you are being watched and is irritated by it, just tell me and I'll stop. Well... not really, I can't stop and I'm sorry that I'm not sorry.

Oh God! I don't even know your name... It kills me you know? Every time I think of you, it kills me. There are a lot of possibilities. There are a lot of what ifs so you can't blame me. I know I sound like a stalker now but hell... stalker my ass I don't care. Just thinking about you with another girl by your side... another girl in your mind... it kills me. It kills me like a fire slowly burning every inch of my body making me feel the pain that it's causing me.

Every day I wake up, I feel hope or maybe I was just imagining things that would make me feel better because I know better. You know that I know that we will never be what I have wished for so I come up with imagining things for my own good. You're the one I always think of. And you know what? I hate you for that! You won't even stop running in my mind! Can't you stop even for a minute? Cause you're hurting me by reminding me of the reality. Can't you see I don't want it? But you know what? After all those things you've done, I'll just end up falling harder to you but you won't even catch me...

You know I will always be here waiting for you... I don't care how long but I'll be waiting. Just please don't tell me to stop because it will be the death of me. I loved you... I love you... and I will love you till I don't know when... just please, please be mine... soon.

It's I, ********