𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐍𝐄, itoshi rin

breakup

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THE VIVID RAYS OF SUN
bestowed themselves onto the gunmetal-esque cement, as crowds poured through the spacious doors and into the school building once the harmonious bell had rung. a gust of blossoms from the trees swirled around in ethereal flurries in the air. the exterior was slightly less anarchic as the interior. few people littered across the lawn with hesitance to go back to their classes.

a figure amidst that multitude belonged to l/n y/n who was face-to-face with her current boyfriend, sae itoshi.

perhaps, he could be classified as an ex.

she wasn't quite sure. after all, breaking up with sae itoshi was not something y/n expected she would check off her bucketlist during her senior year.

"... you want to break up?" y/n whispered, as her eyes took in the solemn sight of her boyfriend. "did i do something wrong?"

sae, who avoided making eye contact, took a moment to think before he shook his head. "no, it's not you." his lips seemed to quiver with a breath of unspoken words.

frowning, y/n kept her gaze on him. she ignored the frantic phone calls that were undoubtedly her friends trying to get her to go back to class before a supervisor caught them, and she ignored the seeming guilt that made its way onto sae's face. what was there to be guilty about? she wondered, hoping it wasn't for the reason she assumed.

"then, what is it?" y/n asked, hoping to get a straight answer out of the boy. after all, they had been together from the end of their junior high years. the girl had found herself falling in love with sae, but were the feelings not mutual?

sae had a tendency to keep things to himself, so perhaps there was something he wasn't telling her.

y/n kept her expectant gaze on sae as he avoided eye contact.

"well, it's just that... i don't know how to say this—" as he began to explain, a hurtfully familiar face made its way into y/n's peripherals.

"sae~! what are you doing here? let's go back to class!"

y/n caught sight of a beautiful brunette girl, her radiant smile rivaled the eminent rays of sun that shone upon the trio. her laughter was a melodic chime, effortlessly drawing everyone's attention. with every graceful movement, she seemed to eclipse those around her, leaving y/n feeling a twinge of envy.

"okay, coming. give me a moment." a ghost of a smile made its way onto sae's face, and the pieces began to click in y/n's head. why he had suddenly decided to break up, and why he was hesitant on telling her.

the other girl sent y/n a surprised look, before giving a knowing one to sae. "ohh, i see. i'll wait for you inside then!" she cheerfully skipped off, clearly not reading the atmosphere well.

"is it because of her?" y/n asked, a dejected sadness etched its way onto her face. "was i not enough for you, even after four years?"

her name was madison, an american transfer student who sae was tasked with helping her get to know the school and japanese culture.

sae, who previously had felt detached from the conversation, hardened his gaze and bore his eyes into y/n's. his aura had changed to a more serious one, and it made the out in y/n's stomach grow.

"it's not just about her," he sighed, his voice heavy. "you and i... we've grown apart. i mean, you've noticed it too haven't you?"

in a way, he was right. but that was only because sae insisted on spending much of his time focused on soccer. while y/n put her efforts into maintaining their relationship.

"madison... she brings something exciting into my life. something i've been missing." sae harshly said. "i've thought a lot about this, and i figured that breaking up would be better than leading you on."

but to leave me for someone you just met? isn't that a little fast to make such a judgement?

"why not me...?" y/n blurted out. she wasn't trying to insult madison— in fact, she held the girl in a high regard. "what does she have that- that i couldn't give you for four years?"

y/n furrowed her eyebrows and before she could continue, sae responded.

"i'm sorry, but you'll never be her."

as soon as those words left his mouth, he turned around and made his way back into the school building, likely to meet up with madison.

a deep feeling of dread made y/n's heart drop down to her feet, and she almost broke down crying right there.

had she not been so simpleminded, she would have noticed the subtle glances sae and madison shared when y/n wasn't looking, the way that he would sometimes spend his lunches with her instead with the excuse that he was helping her, the way that he would smile with her. perhaps she subconsciously ignored those red flags because her and sae had been together for so long that she made excuses for him. perhaps it was because she loved him.

but at the end of the day, she would never be madison. she was strikingly beautiful, making everyone around her seem ordinary. her graceful presence brought attention wherever she went. her smile was so bright, it left others feeling overshadowed.

she was a sunrise in a world of night, her radiance painting the sky with hues others could only dream of. each step she took was a melody, turning heads like leaves swaying to the whisper of the wind. if madison was the sun, then perhaps y/n was the moon. or maybe even lesser than that.

as y/n looked up and took in the brilliance of the sunny day, a wave of anger and bittersweetness washed over her. how could the world be so bright and cheerful when she felt anything but happy? it seemed almost mocking, the sun's warmth and the clear sky amplifying her frustration. every ray of light felt like an affront to her inner turmoil, deepening her sense of isolation and discontent.

devastated that her first love had chosen another girl over her, y/n abruptly got up and made her way back to class. she was fortunate enough that her and sae were in different classes so she wouldn't have to see him for the rest of the day.

if there was someone whose ego was high enough to help y/n come up with a revenge plot, it was isagi.

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authors note.
sae look at me this isn't u....

anyways new book will i finish it ???? the world will never know