Hidden feelings

Unknown Existence

A girl born, is always seen precious in the family. To tell the truth, it also bring responsibilities along with fear. This fear turns every parent chose their own way to show her place in the society and how she should behave accordingly.

This is a story about a girl feeling too overwhelmed with all that is happening around her. 

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A girl walking along a long path set by her dear parents. Everybody cares her. Everybody gives her anything she wants, right to her hands, until some age. When she turns the age of 'understanding' according to them, it all becomes very confusing to her. Because she is still taken care by everyone in every way, given everything they feel she needed to her right away. Before she asks something through her mouth she is already given something to her hands. Accepting their sincere love from them and not disappointing them, she accepts it all, without a word.

She grows a little more. A teenager. She still has everything near her, before even she could wish for herself. It felt natural. She thought it's just common. There's a party in her friends house, she is in her secondary schooling level, venue not so far, the behind street. She brought every ounce of her courage she could build from her for three days, and asked before the day it happens. They say, " It's already getting late dear, just cancel out for this time. Don't go today " She smiled because her family is very considerate of her, she is happy. Just nodded and complied their words as every time.

She greeted a friend on the street, a boy. Her parents did not like it. They called it wrong. She asked her parents again when she was 17, to another birthday party, got no permission. She just smiled. She asked when she is 19, to a class get-together meet, got rejected. She smiled. She started thinking why don't they ever let her go out to anybody, any friends or any places. 

Now she is 19, so she sits in her room and think about everything. She felt like she had everything. Standing up and roaming around the room she found every needful thing but they never sparked any memory. Something that reminds her of happiness. So she thinks more...

Then it struck her, oh she understands now,

she has everything even before she asks, she is provided by everything but not to her liking. She has everything even before she voices out something that she wants. In reality she has everything already decided for her that she couldn't answer her friends, when they ask "what do you like ?" cause she never choose for herself, never was given a chance to speak her wishes and thoughts, never given a freedom of liking something by herself... for herself. She herself has never seen her true self, doesn't know who she is, what is her true identity. 

The reality is truly cruel.. 😔

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