I was told na walang makakatiis sa akin, na walang magtiya-tiyaga. Dahil mahirap akong mahalin. Dahil may sarili akong mundo. My childhood friend left me, and now, I found my first boyrfriend cheating on me. Cheating on me. Hah! Tangina.
"Ano ba? Mag-usap naman muna tayo. Hindi kita niloloko.. She.. She's just a friend!" ani nito saka pilit akong hinaharap sa kan'ya. Friend, ang putangina! Tumigil ako maglakad at saka siya sinampal.
"Friend?! Friend na kini-kiss?! Tangina mo. Lubayan mo ako, baka hindi talaga ako makapagtimpi sa 'yo!" bulyaw ko sa kan'ya saka tuluyang lumabas ng condo niya. Narinig ko ang yapak niya na sumusunod pa rin. Nilabas ko ang pepper spray ko sa bag at saka siya hinarap muli. His bloodshot eyes are almost begging. As if madadala ako sa gan'yan?! Tangina mo!
"I'll fucking spray this on you if you don't fucking stop following me!" I told him as I showed him my pepper spray. Napakamot siya sa kan'yang ulo at saka kinagat ang labi.
"You know.. I'll never—"
"But you did." I said as I continued walking away from him. Not even a single tear fell. Or maybe because I know that this is how it will end. My father cheated on my Mom, and I will get cheated on with my boyfriend at sa mga darating ko pang magiging kasintahan. Tanginang kasabihan! Totoo nga! Mga hayop!
I booked a cab para makapunta sa isang famous bar in Manila. I need to drink.
I dialed Alani's number but she didn't answer. Probably drowning herself with papers. I just want some company at hindi naman samain ang loob ko when it comes to that. Hay, but mas magiging better 'to kung nandito siya.
Pumasok na ako sa loob at nag-order ng cocktail. For starter. Saka na mamaya sa hard drinks. My phone vibrated and showed Lovely's name on it. Hindi ko na sinagot saka nagtipa ng mensahe. Kalagitnaan pa lang ako ay may text na siya.
Alani:
Bakit? Inaayos ko mga papel ko may demo kasi ako bukas. Nasaan ka?
Ako:
wala, beh. ayain sana kita bukas, kain tayo samgyup!
Alani:
Ah, sige. What time? 4 pm pa kasi tapos ko.
Ako:
after na lang ng demo mo. or ewan ko bahala ka, bukas na lang usap us.
I sent the last text, and looked behind me as I felt someone was looking at me. Tama nga. Nanlaki ang mata ko when I saw him. A friend from junior high school!
"Dave?!" sa gulat ko ay napatalon ako at niyakap siya. He looked surprise, too.
"Maria Giovanna!" bulalas niya at saka naupo sa katabi kong long chair. I smiled and ordered a drink for him. I arched my brow kung pasado ba iyon sa kan'ya and he smiled.
"Please, just call me Gio. You know how much I hate my full name!" I said as I laughed it out. He eyed me as his mouth slowly turned into circle. I am wearing a gold satin dress that is way above my knees, it is connected with string on my back, a little pearls sa harap just to give details to what I am wearing.
"You know, you, being dressed like this was only in my imagination." aniya at saka ako kinandatan.
"Oh, fuck you." bulalas ko at ngumisi saka inabot sa kan'ya ang inumin niyang in-order ko.
"So, I heard you and Frank are dating?" He asked maliciously and I scoffed. Frank is my first crush during high school. He didn't like me because I am boyish. But then, he became my boyfriend and yay! He cheated on me!
