Holding back tears

2.

Stiles walks out of his house after me "El" he shouts catching my attention "Hey" he says smiling at me

"How long will you be gone" he asks and I scan his face

I don't want to leave I want to stay here for Scott and Stiles

"I don't know Sti"

"I don't want you to go" he says looking from my lips to my eyes

"I don't want to either"

The next thing I know his soft lips are on mine and my hand is on the back of his head and his is on my waist and the other on my face

He lets go and I can still feel his lips on mine just like they never left

"Promise you'll came back to see me" he asks like he didn't just kiss me

"I promise"

The first morning back in Beacon hills felt like it was dragging on the whole night I was tossing and turning

I know Eli was doing the same by the sounds on him doing jumping jacks and working out

It felt like everything changed and it did our friends lives changed and we did and our family was gone except us

As soon as I went downstairs I made food quickly trying to make something so my stomach wouldn't ache

"Hey" Eli says walking away from the stairs rubbing his eyes

His hair was all messy and he was wearing a random shirt and pj pants

"Hey want some" I say pointing to the toast and eggs I am making

He shakes his head yes and sits down at the kitchen island

"Didn't sleep much" I say giving him his plate of food and setting mine down a seat away from him

"Nope you"

"Nope"

We didn't need to talk we already know how we both were feeling we always called it twin telepathy

Ever since our brother died the world went quiet like nothing was right in the world like it shouldn't have been him like we lost ourselves too

Jay always made us happy he knew every way to cheer us up no matter what and now he was gone and even our parents are

This house was like they are still here like they never left like our lives didn't change like we are two teenager werewolf's with no parents and like we didn't lose our big brother

After Jay died Eli and I's relationship wasn't as strong as twins should be we kinda stopped talking to each other but in certain moments it felt like nothing changed

But we would always go back to the same way it was like a constant reminder it should have been one of us but he saved us

"Want to go see Stiles" Eli says making me quickly look at him and he nods knowing I do

We both hop in the car and I smile at him as he puts on music making me giggle