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prologue

- If you know it in one glimpse, it's legendary. You and I go from one kiss to gettin married -

May 13th, 2013

"Travis, do you take this woman to be your lawfully wedded wife, for better or for worse, in sickness and in health, until death parts you?"

"I do." Travis murmured, stroking his thumb over my cheek where his hand was resting as he slipped the ring onto my fourth finger. I smiled, blinking away tears for the hundredth time already today.

"Taylor, do you take this man to be your lawfully wedded husband, for better or for worse, in sickness and in health, until death parts you?"

"I do." I whispered, reaching out and placing his ring on.

"Then by the power vested in me, I pronounce you husband and wife. Travis, you may now kiss your bride."

"About damn time." My new husband huffed and I giggled as he swept me into a long, lingering kiss that sealed our marriage for the first time. "I love you T." He whispered.

"I love you too." I smiled. "So much."

- I wish I could un-recall, how we almost had it all -

April 29th, 2014

"Who the hell is she Travis?" I sobbed, tears streaming down my face as Travis shoved me away, not responding. Like he couldn't even hear me.

I grabbed his phone, scrolling through his messages and clicking on the first chat. Travis tried to snatch his phone back but it was too late. I'd seen all I needed to see. The pictures and texts he was sending to this girl, the ones she was sending back. I let him take his phone, my shoulders slumping, defeated.

"Baby, I swear, she means nothing to me." Travis took my face in his hands, starting to cry. "I'm sorry. I was just so stressed about work and she..."

"I want a divorce." I whispered.

"What?"

"I want a divorce!" I cried, shoving his arms off me. "Don't touch me!" I shrieked as he tried to reach out again. "I want a fucking divorce Travis."

"What about the baby?" Travis begged. "T, please. I can fix this. I didn't mean it. Please." He fell to his knees in front of me. "I'm sorry. I can't lose you."

I stepped back, cradling my three month baby bump with both hands as my heart broke. Travis stared at me but I shook my head, turning for the door. I didn't know where I was going, but I knew this wasn't my home anymore.

- Our field of dreams, engulfed in fire. Your arson's match your somber eyes. And I'll still see it until I die -

August 20th, 2014

"It's a girl!" The nurse exclaimed and I burst into tears, clapping my hand over my mouth as she lifted the baby up towards me. "Here you go Mom, here's your beautiful baby daughter."

"Oh hi sweet girl." I sobbed as my daughter was rested down on my chest, covered in blood and other things, but still the most beautiful baby I had ever seen. "Hi baby. Hi." I kissed the blonde tufts stuck against her head, tears streaming down my cheeks. 

She was beautiful. Tiny, a few weeks premature, but perfect. I sobbed as I held her close, looking over at Travis as he watched us. 

"She's beautiful T." He murmured and I nodded, pressing my lips together.

"You want to hold her?" I offered, and Travis swallowed but moved to take her from me. 

We'd only been divorced three months, and it already felt like forever. But we'd worked it out, if only for the little baby girl now in Travis' arms. She'd still have both of her parents. Broken parents, but both nonetheless. It was the most we could offer her. We had to try. Even if it broke us.

- you're the loss of my life -