Clementines - RenHyuck

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Donghyuck enjoyed college. Throughout his whole life, he'd been talked about, bullied, and laughed at.

Here, he wasn't. Everyone minded their business and everyone liked him, or at least he thinks so.

He always struggled with body issues from when he was in kindergarten to now in his sophomore year of college.

But that didn't matter at that moment.

Donghyuck looked at himself in the mirror, he was trying to see if the outfit was good enough and he just decided to ask Renjun. He heads over toward the olders room, knocking before heading into the room.

"Hey Jun?" Donghyuck called out.

"Yeah? What is it?" Donghyuck sees Renjun about to grab something out his closet but turns around and meets his eyes. 

"Does this outfit look okay? Sorry for bothering you if you were busy.." He says and does a little circle, showing his outfit.

He sees Renjun look him up and down, almost with a jealous look in his eyes before meeting his eyes and answering.

"Uh, yeah the outfit looks nice, it compliments you." Renjun answered. "Thanks! I'll be back a little late so lock the door." Donghyuck says closing the door, not waiting for an answer and heads out to another dorm.

When he gets near the dorm, he can hear the bass of the music from inside. He heads into the dorm, and gets greeted by a few people.

He starts to party and drink. He downs a shot. He liked this feeling. He felt calm and free. He liked to dance and drink. The thoughts weren't there.

As he downed two more shots, he knew the thoughts would always come back. But for now, he enjoyed the feeling.

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When he was in Kindergarten, he was considered a 'thin kid'. He was made fun of and people constantly compared him to things like the pencils and sticks there.

This continued constantly, and his family told him he should eat more as his ribs could be seen without him doing anything. The main problem was that he liked to eat. He didn't know why he was so skinny.

His mom would make food and he would eat fuller plates to eat more and he'd never put on the weight.

When he was in fourth grade, he started to put on more weight but was still too thin for everyone else. During that summer, he lounged around. He didn't have anything to really do so all he did was eat and sit on his phone. He ate so much, he didn't bother to work out. It was always eat, sleep, laugh and scroll, eat.

When he was in fifth grade, he had gained weight and was considered to be a 'normal weight'. His ribs didn't show when he just sat there, his stomach poked out a bit and his arms and legs filled out more. No one made comments on him and he was content. He continued to eat, and eat.

It was the summer transition from fifth grade to sixth grade that was the real problem. He saw skinny people everywhere and realized people were aiming to be more skinny instead of gaining weight. He stopped eating and lost a bunch of weight. He started to starve himself a lot and ended up going back to being skinny. He wore a lot of baggy clothes to hide it and he continued to eat less. When school started back up, he was around 87 pounds. He was scared of the scale and didn't want anything to do with food.

He saw skinny kids everywhere eating food and they didn't gain weight. He figured he too would be the same. He started to eat a lot unnecessarily and ended up gaining weight again and during the summer of 6th grade to seventh he was 120 and healthy. His body filled out more, and he was happy with how he looked for the moment. But he loves to eat now. He'd eat a bunch of food in one sitting but didn't realize he burned it off since he'd done a lot more active activities that summer.