Yours to take

chapter 27

"Hello Nobita?"

"Bro I feel really anxious!"

"Anxious? Why? Are you okay? why are you still awake? Did something happen?" , Suneo asked worried, sensing restlessness in Nobita's voice.

"I had a nightmare" , He says, almost on the verge of crying, overwhelmed by what he is feeling , "I dreamt I'm going to lose him..."

"Him?" , Suneo asked confused then he suddenly remembers, "Dekisugi?"

"Bro I don't... I don't wanna lose him" , His voice breaks, his throat feels like it's getting strangled by someone, and his heart getting squeezed, "..I-I understand now.... I know now.... I don't wanna lose him.... I love him..."

"Broooo... you know what you are saying?..." ,Suneo asked not believing his ears, that his dense bff is finally being honest with himself.

"I know broo... I finally understand now.... what you said is totally correct..."

"What I said?"

"You said, if the day ever comes that you truly like someone... the saddest thing that could happen to you will be that person leaving you...I... finally understand what that feels like...." , he says, not being able to contain his overwhelming feelings anymore and his tears flow , " I miss him, and I'm worried about him but i feel like I can't reach him.... It feels like he is getting further and further away from me.... what if he never comes back?... what if he really gets someone there? What will I do?... "

"Brooo... broo... first calm down... calm down and listen to me" , Suneo said, trying to calm him, "Calm down and tell me what you dreamt of..."

"I saw him...i dreamt about him... I dreamt that he was holding a guy who looked like a foreigner with blonde hair and the same height as me... When I asked him who that guy is... he said that guy is his boyfriend..." , he answers, wiping his tears and trying to breathe evenly to control his overwhelming feelings.

" *Sigh* Broo calm down, it's just a dream. There's no way he will get together with someone that is not you... Believe it or not he is head over heels for you. You don't know cause you didn't see but i saw,...i saw how he looks at you, the look in his eyes like there's nothing more lovable than you"

"Then-... Then why did I have a dream like this?... There must be some meaning behind it...?"

"Hmm listen... If you ask me why you dreamt something like that then what i think is that it was your inner fear and the restlessness you were feeling because of not being able to talk to him since he went abroad, it was getting to your head that you have a dream like that, you know when we have something going on in our mind, it tend to appear in the form of dreams when we sleep" , Suneo says explaining , "And my bff, you're really dense.. you didn't even understand your own heart but i guess you finally understand, you're finally being honest with yourself".

"...." , Nobita listens to Suneo's explanation intently , "Now that I think about it, you're right bro... I didn't realise... or i didn't want to realise cause i was afraid... I was afraid of misunderstanding my attraction as love again... I was afraid of getting hurt again... I didn't want to go through the same emotional turmoil that I went through before..."

"I understand... but do you realise while trying to save yourself from getting hurt, you unconsciously were hurting yourself... you wanted to avoid going through the same emotional turmoil but aren't you going through that right now"