𝔩𝔬 𝔮𝔲𝔢 𝔰𝔦𝔢𝔫𝔱𝔬 - mikasa

3

"you too.. mikasa." i say lowly, staring into her pure black eyes that was sparkling due to the sunlight that shined into the window. fuck. shes beautiful. she played with my wispy bangs gently. touching every single strand that covered my forehead. it feels good. i wamt her to do this forever.

as we were in the moment, her phone dings, repeatedly. she had ignored the first 2 sounds but it became annoying so she checked her phone. i noticed a change in her eyes. i wonder what she saw.

"y/n.. i need to go for abit.. uhm.. get some groceries, yeah?" she stutters in her words. it had only been minutes since she called me pretty. is she just leaving like that? im sure whatever she saw wouldn't be about buying groceries if it made her eyes widen like that. i brushed it off. i trust her.

i jolt myself off her lap. "yeah, sure." i watch her grab her purse and leave. the sound of the door shutting felt   louder than ever. why is she rushing..? i took my cardigan and folded it to a pillow and placed it on the armrest of the sofa. i layed down and connected my phone to mikasa's speaker.

now playing: lo que siento - cuco

i stared into the ceiling. listening to the song. carefully listening to the lyrics. it had matched my feelings for her. i placed my phone on my stomach. waiting for that rhythmic vibration to play. i made a special ringtone for her notifications.

just wait. wait, y/n.

i said to myself. multiple times.

3 hours later

the same song still playing in the background. "3 hours.  fuck me." i waited and waited. nothing. not a single message from her. in fact, not a message from anyone. thats how lonely i really was. i gave up. i took my satchel and left her apartment.

i reached the entrace of the place. looking at the rain. falling down, splashing me slightly once it touched the ground. i had no umbrella.

"fuck it, we ball." i said as i ran in the rain. running in the direction of my apartment. i covered my hair with my hands, as if it would do anything. i observed my surroundings, seeing any sort of public building i can take a breather in. thankfully, i saw a nearby bar. i quickly ran in. the bells jingling as i entered.

sigh i cough at myself for running so fast. i looked up. the place almost empty.

"hey. give me the strongest shit you have." i say to the bartender. i check my phone for the time. 10pm. how long did i wait. i rub the back of my head. i took a seat, i placed my arms on the table and rested my head on it. i was going to doze off when the bartender came to my table. "here you go, maam." he smiles and puts the drink on my table. "hope things get better." he says.

how did he know i was going through something? i look up at the light brown haired man.

"ah, sorry." he clears his throat. "usually everyone who comes here and asks for a strong drink always was going through some shit. haha!" he laughs.  "let me know if you need anything else. the names, mobilt." he walks away.

you chug down the drink. shit. he was not playing about this drink. gosh dang. i almost choke at myself. i look out the window. it was still raining heavily. i watch a couple enter. my eyes blurry, trying to scan whoever just walked in. the lady's arm was wrapped around his as they sit down on the table across from mine.

the guy looked like a brunette. he walked up to the counter and ordered. i look away to scan the woman. black short hair. light skinned. lips were as red as a apple. i rub my eyes.

"mikasa?" i mumble. "eren?" i cough as i look at her.

"y/n..?" she says. i stand up and walk towards her, i couldn't keep my balance and almost fell but caught onto a seat.

"you.. you.. i waited for you. where were you?" you point at her. "i waited for 3 hours.." i add on. i look at eren. smiling away while talking to mobilt.

"y/n.. not now.. go home, please?" mikasa says.

"how can i fucking go home, mikasa?" i shout. mobilt and eren stopped talking to look at you. "i don't understand.. you said you went to get groceries.. i see nothing on your hands." you point out.

"you're drunk, y/n. let me call you an uber. get some rest." she pulls out her phone and presses it. i whack the phone out of her hands, causing it to fall to the floor.

"answer me.." i say softly, a tear falls down my cheek.

"haha, okay now.. lets calm down." eren butts in. he holds on to my shoulders. "how about you go home, you're out of it."

i gave in. i took my bag and rushed out.

"wait! you can't go home in that condition!" mikasa shouts. "eren. lets call it a night, okay?" he was pissed, but nodded. she rushed towards me, gripping on to my wrist. i shaked her hand off and walked to the direction that wasn't even where my apartment was.

"you're going to the wrong direction. stop." she was persistent. "how would you know. shut up." she then took my arm, and pulled me towards her. a car went past. i could've died there. "just go to mines." she sighed.

i flipped her off. "fuck off." i pull away from her. i got back to my senses and realised i was going the wrong way. i turned around and walked at the correct direction.

"i'm not letting you go home alone." her strict voice sent shivers down my spine but i didn't care as much.

"please, mikasa. just go. i can go home." i turn around to look at her. you didn't want her to go. but i couldn't control what i was saying.

sigh i heard her. she turned around and walked the opposite direction.

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ehh.. don't know what to feel about this chapter

starting from next chapter, ill be writing in third person :)

love,
k.