Love's Enduring Legacy -2: MY QUEEN

chapter 54 : deserve ...

Ae pov :

    A soft breeze hit my face ...I chuckled in pain... Can and I went back to the palace... I enquired with my soldiers ....

Ae - you said my king won ... Then how did he die ?.. .

Soldiers - s..someone used black magic my lord !..

I clenched my fists...

Ae - so someone who tried to kill me killed my brother in law and my king...

Can - it seems like that my lord...

Ae - what about my brother ?...

Can - he seems broken my lord ..

I smiled in pain ..

Ae - looks like love is pain ....anyway... find who is all behind this..iam going to rest...

I took the flowers which i brought and went to the ancestral hall ....I placed the flowers infront of my king's tablet ...

Ae - i brought these ...for you ... I should have stopped you from going to that bloody war !... It's my fault actually ...but iam still angry at you my king ...iam really really angry ...this terrible pain and this punishment you gave me... I have to hate you ..but...

I...I can't na... I..I love you that much ...i.it seems I like this pain too because it reminds me of you my king ... Its impossible that I will forget you ...so this pain will remain with me till the day i die...

I breathed in heavily and bowed to my father ...

Ae - looks like i got why you have always been disappointed in me... because I am that king who can't save his love... I don't deserve to be a king any more...sorry for disappointing you again father ....

I looked at my mother ....I smiled...

Ae - iam sorry mom ...no one loves me...m..maybe I..iam just a monster ...just like father used to say...

I bowed to them again and controlled my tears....I went to my chamber ... I can't feel anything anymore ...iam not hungry...iam not thirsty ..my life seems so useless...all i remember is my king...his face ...his smile ..his cute actions...I touched the snow smiling in pain ...

After two days... My brother came to me ... I hugged him tight..he kissed me crying ..I buried my face in his chest ...

Thiwat - i..iam sorry ...hmm ?..( sob )... Iam late na...

He parted and kissed my face...

Thiwat - w..why are you so pale na ?....hmm ?....aren't you eating ?.