Forgotten Twin

Close To A End

      Liv
       
        I couldn't wipe the smile off my face. Cloud nine feeling so good. I enter my room. Barbered with a guest. Fully hurt in their eyes. Having everything plastered in front of them. I have no clue on what to say. Closing the door behind me. Spelling the room so no one can here us. There was this very gloomy aura in the air. It caught my breath as ai met their eyes sharpening at me.
       
        "Liv? What is this? What are you doing?" Mery said so bitter in pain.
       
        "Its not what you think Mery. I swear their not even mines." I pleaded hoping our twin connection works. Mery had to know I would never. Right?
       
        "I don't even know what to think. Just the smell alone tells me. And this." Holding up the journal. It was spelled. For my own eyes. "I couldn't get in it. But for you to spell it. And hid it with all these stuff. It tells me your not here to be a family again."
       
        Staring between Mery's glare of disappointment and all my stuff. I couldn't tell whats more important. My relationship with her. Or taking down Sage no matter what. I can't just come out and tell her. She gave me sanctuary here. And I am ever more grateful. But how can I tell her without hurting her and including her all at once.
       
        "You know why I came. My choice to stay was different." Mery scoff in pain. "I came and stay for you Mery! It was always you regardless of my past. Because you of all people would know I would never be able to stay here as long as I did if it wasn't for my love for you." I added.
       
        "And these. What are they for? Some sick thing your working on? Are you so anger with us that you want to harm us?" I took a second but quickly shake my head no. "Then for what! Why have them?"
       
        "I can't just tell you why. I would if I could. You'll just be in danger." Tears streaming down my face. Pleading and pleading for Mery to trust me. To understand that I am here harmless to all. Expect Sage. But I didn't say that.
       
        But it seem to her react that she won't believe me. She kept pleading and asking for what. Trying her hardest to get me to explain why.
       
        "Is it Travis? Is something so terrible going on that you need to tick in such magic. Are they truly worth your innocent!" She stood up from the bed. Anger for hiding this and not giving her a reason. "Don't be so dumb Livey! He may be your mate and claim to love you as luna but he or them or anyone other then us and me. They would never understand the outcome of this kind. No boy would be worth your life." I stay in place hurt for what she say.
       
        "I just don't understand how he tricked you into this. Anything is a better solution then tinkering in this." She threw the items on the bed. Her body calm down. Seeing her chest slowing down. Yet my heart was dropping by her words. "If you were in trouble. You could of just came to me. I would of helped. But not with this. This I can't Livey. And I can't with all my love for you, have you do this under my nose. I can't." Mery was clearly mad. Not at my mate or the dark magic items. But at me. Hurt from my secret.
       
        I hold my arm. Punching it with each hurt she spat at me. I never seen her so upset. But she had never seen me upset either. Not like this. I didn't want to yell back. I didn't want to fight either. Yet Mery's was hurt and kept lashing out. It was a trigger. Hitting something I thought I hid away. Something I thought I got rid of a long time away. Yet, my sister hit that nerve.
       
        "Look Mery." I said softy.
       
        "What! You gonna defend him and blame us for everything. Oh god Livey. We mourn you. We love you. We welcomed you back with all we can. Can you just move on already. Looking forward instead of the dang past. I swear you'll be so much happier if you do. Just give it up already, for the love of your goddess STOP!"  She said so wickedly. Like I was seeking attention or something.
       
        I thought me and Meredith were heading in a good direction. I really, really thought our bond was getting back to the sweet olde days. WRONG. But she only seen and heard what she wanted. Kinda of made me think if she even cared. Did she? Or was this only about her? Was it even for our family or bond? I should of knew I couldn't of come back and expect anyone to accept me back fully. Even my own twin.
       
        So I took a deep healing breath. Knowing whats about to come out won't be easy. And things will be said. Meredith had already said her pain. Said what she said. Now its my turn. Stepping forth.
       
        "My reason for this had little to zero affect between Travis or my pack." Scoffing angrily to, 'my pack'.  But I brushed it off. "They have no part in this. The act only is for a witch that I will report. Someone I can't just let get away with so much stuff from their past and what their planning on. I just can't. Its sinful!"
       
        "Who is it? Are they a part of our coven?" She asked.
       
      I thought quick. "I can't tell you much details. I don't want them to find out you know. I can't have them use you as a leverage on me to no finishing my task. But I swear on our bond. When its safe. I will tell you everything." I said. Calming my anger as my hand tighten.
       
      Mery face blank. "I don't know if I believe you. This can just be another lie. Why can't I read your mind and hear the truth. Just tell me Livey. If you love me. Then just tell me." In choking words.
       
        "I do love you. My ambition for this was for you. And then it became more than that. The stuff I found. I had to. There was no other option, I swear it."
       
        "So you're doing dark magic to just report this person to the council! Thats not a reason. None of this is. You're just lying! And for who?" She still can't see my true act. She was block from her own anger. "If Travis is.."
       
        I cut her off quick. Tired of her not listening to a single thing I say. And for some reason she was blaming Travis. He wanted me as much as she does now to not be involve in this. Yet not either one will stop me.
       
        "Enough!" I shouted. "Travis didn't make me do s***. This was my doing. He hates me for even trying to report this person. Both of you are in the same place! But he understood why because he actually loves me deep down with all the his strength. Knowing its too much to even step foot here again after the pain I endure here. He gets it and encourage me to finish it. Unlike someone right now." I added.
       
        "Thats not love!" Mery yelled with rage.
       
        "Not one you knew of. And I hope one day you do." Both in total pain. We stood there. Facing each other. Silence for a moment.
       
        "Why can't you just stop. Their probably not even worth it." She said.
       
        "You just don't get it. You will never get it. Even if I had explain before. Or even why I did what I did after. You won't get it because we are two different people." I said slowly in a sorrow tone.
       
        "Just tell me. And if not. Look past this anger crap. You are here now. Lets enjoy it. Together." Mery smiles at me.
   
    But I can't share it with her. She makes things easy with her hopes and dreams. Only because that what she had all her life. She had it all. Everything for her. I didn't. I made sure at my failure of youth that she be loved and care for. Even now I still make sure she had that. But my dear, sweet sister did not see that. She see no pain because it was not her to see.
       
        "This person deserves nothing. My past of just forgotten and forget. Its not easy when all you do is have nightmare on the daily. Being a child in fear was survivor mode."
       
        "Livey." Mery gasp. But I continue.
       
        "I spent years down there wanting to die from such pain endure on me. I had asked to take it all away. I even tried. I didn't want to be here then. Endure more pain for just living. I tried and no one cared. I was alone." I breath. I look down. Away from her. Admitting a dark secret. "And I had no one to fall on. Even after I escape. I still felt trapped for so long. And the episode's I get brings it all back. The sleepless nights. And soak corner of my pillowcase tells me I am alway tourture because of it. I can never be truly free from my past." Catching my breath.
       
        "If I could change and be just a bit as good a child as you, I would. I tried and tried but I never could of. I was better alone out there."
       
        "Without me?" She cried.
       
        "Without you was the best." No question. I didn't mean it to sound so bitter. "Without me. You had it all. I wasn't meant to be here. Little long this covens toy or slave. But my sorrows and my pain let me to thrive. And with each heart ace and darkness of my past. I came here to end that piece. Even if you my sister hates me more. Because I did what was needed."
       
        "I can't forget it. I will never forget it. But I have, for a long time now. I have move on. So throwing it in my face like it was nothing doesn't get you the right to just demand me to be happy in a place I can't and will never call home. My family and my home is far, far away here." Thinking of my pack. My heart speeds up.
       
     
      "If I could of helped. Do something so you never had to leave. I would." Mery said softy in sorrows.
     
      "There nothing you could of done. Goddess forbid you knew what happen. I would blame myself for dragging you down. And I promised to never allow you to be hurt because of me." I step back.
     
      "You should of just told me. Things could of been different. We sisters." Does she really think that.
     
      "Nothing on this world could of change what happen. It was fate and we have to live with it. At least I do." I said
     
      "But you couldn't. We were strong together. Even now. I wish you didn't hid it. Together we could of." As if it was my fault.
     
      "I had no choice on what happen. I just took it like I was told.  Knowing if I just shut my mouth. It won't be bad until my end was near. All I had was making sure you didn't see what I faced. You got the love and childhood joy we all needed. Thats all that mattered." And it was true. Without that. I had no idea what kept me here until that attack. "It was my pain, my life, my failure. I went through it so you didn't have to."
     
      "Livey that still doesn't mean you should of kept me away." She just didn't understand. She will never understand.
     
      "Of course it does!" I yelled and the room vibrated around us. "It was all me. You had nothing to do with it. Its just me. And if you can deal with that and move on your hypothetical pain. Then this talk it done. I can't go back and be prefect Mery. I was stripped and beaten. I have the scars and awful memories. Not you!"
     
      Mery said nothing back. Tears running down both our faces.
      "I have to live with what happen. Even now. And being here doesn't help. But i'm here for dear old Mery. Because I love you and I do it all for you. But maybe I should of never came back. Would of save this god d*** fight we keep having. Move on from it already. From us!" I didn't want us to not see each other but it came out like that.
     
        "I just wanted my sister back. I didn't want to cause you pain by being here. I thought coming back.. Now will change all of it." Her eyes water up. "Erase that hate or ugly thing." It can never. She just didn't get it.
       
        "I know you did. Things just don't work like that. Maybe it was just too soon for us. And soon I will be gone again. You won't have to deal with my bad attitude anymore." I turn my head. Swanging my hand up. I unspelled the door and have it open widen.
          "Fine." She said. Looking down and walking out the door.
        Both feeling so much hurt and pain. My heart crack at the feeling of losing my sister again. But maybe this is what we needed for her to understand why I'm doing this. And if not. At least I tried to get my Mery back.
       
        After a few moments. My crotch started to hurt. Not forgetting the high ride of my life with Travis. My body heats up to the memory. I can still feel his lips on my soft skin. His hands caging my curves. And his tongue! Oh goddess his tongue. It was all so fresh. I blush hard at the flashbacks. I quickly grabbed some stuff and headed to the bathroom. Running a nice hot, boil of a bath. I put some nice salts and roses in. Some drops of tea tree oil mix with lavender oil. I sparkle some mineral bath salt with my favorite bubbles. And of course some smoothing music. Soaking myself in heaven. I wanted to cleanser all negative energy. Along with the aching pain down in my south area.
       
        Time pasted by my amazing bath. With loud footsteps the door swang open. D*** near scaring the living s*** out of me. Until I see raging Mery yelling at me again.
       
        "Livey! I love you. You're my sister and I just want everything to be just like it was before." She huffs with her arms just flying everywhere.
       
        "Mery. I am naked in the tub. Can't this wait?" I asked.
       
        She shook her head. Implying no. So I let her shout. "I'm sorry if I wasn't there. I should of been there. I should of done something. I hate this fight. I can't stand doing this again and again. I hate ever aspect of our past. I was awful."
       
        "Its not your fault. I'm not blaming you."
       
        "I'm blaming me!" She said. And the room got silence.
       
        "Mery. You couldn't of known. It is what it is. I have heal and moved on. We are learning and moving on differently together." Despite what happen and what we know now. We both had to face the truth and just move on from it.
       
        "But I'm not just your sister. I'm your twin. I should of just known. I could of saved you. I should of gotten out of my prefect bubble and see the truth." She gasped in small tears.
       
        "No one could of saved me Mery. Besides. I lived. I was guided far away. I'm sorry it happen but it was for the better at the time." And it was.
       
        "I lost you Livey. I fail as a sister when I looked pass it and just enjoy my life while you where in actually pain. And spite that. When you died. I felt a part of me died too."
       
        I wanted to say something to comfort her but couldn't. There was no words.
       
        "I blame myself for all of it. Even if you don't think so. I do. And all I wanted since you came back. Was to have my sister again." Mery takes a sit next to the tub. A small stool beside me. "I didn't want you to be so uncomfortable here. Thats why I try so hard and i'm sorry it may seem like I don't care. Because I do." She took one deep breath. "I was hurt too. I felt like I lost everything. And learning the truth made the pain worst." She cried.
       
        I sat up from the tub and lean over a bit. Grabbing Mery's hand with a tight squeeze. "I'm sorry I didn't see how much this efforted you too. I guess its on both of us." We shared a smile and it felt like that dark cloud from the past has finally flew away.
       
        "You think we can still recover from it all. And go back to semi sisters again?" She asked me.
       
        I nod. "We're do it together. I love you Meredith."
       
        "I love you too Elizabeth." We chuckled. We never really say our full name to each other. And then Mery's eyes glance down my body. Her eyes full of worried and shock. "Livey? What on earth goddess happen to you?"
       
        I looked down and chuckled after I realize what she was talking about. "Ohh their nothing. Don't worry about them. Their heal on their own."
       
        "Do they hurt? When did they happen? Did someone hurt you?" She ask me. I can see she was concern. And with chuckle trying to come out.
      "Their hickies Mery. Their no bruises or anything. Their kind why i'm taking a bath for." Giving her a sharp look.
     
      But by her face. She didn't quite understand why. "Ohh okay so Travis did those and they hurt so bad that you need a bath. Or does this help healing them faster. Because they seem to be all over you."
     
      Ohh Mery. So innocent. I would think by now she knows a little. Even from aunt Mable. Goddess knows her stories only get more graphic the older we gotten.
     
      "Well. Their more from Malcolm." I chuckle.
     
      Widen eyes. Took her a second to caught the hint. "Ohh the wolf. Not another.. I get it. A soothing bath from the kissing." I shook my head and pinch my nose slightly.
     
      "The bath is really for my aching v****." I said. Mery gasp and again took a minute to really, truly get the hint.
     
      "Oh god, okay. Gezz." I laugh at her expression. "Does it always hurt afterwards. I thought sex was suppose to be good. And with your mate."
     
      "Well the first time can hurt. And rough sex can irrated the p****. Plus if the fella is . . ." Holding my hand up to measure out a large length.
     
      Mery stand and shook her head in fear. "Ohh god no. I thought thats made up!"
     
      "A girl can get lucky. And I am a very, very lucky girl with my mate and his.."
     
      "No no no. I don't want to hear about you two or you three." She yelped in a panic. "I love you two but sex in detail like that. I don't want to hear. So keep it hidden." She pleaded. My smile contain from her shock.
     
      "Hah, okay Mary saint." She let out a body shake. "You sound just like Mason. He was all talk about sex until his two best friends got together. Now he say he can't talk about it."
     
      "Good. No one need to know the details and the sounds and all that jazz from you guys." She said.
     
      "You know Mason is known to be a player but for a first timer, if you want." I asked her inccoently really.
     
      "Ohh no. No thank you. I'm not getting some tick or something from him." We laugh.
     
      "All things asides. Sex is good. And with the right person. It can be really good. Just know your body and learn each others too. And when its too much and you want to stop. Speak up." She nods her head. Knowing by her tense body she didn't want to keep having this talk.
     
      "Okay Livey. I'll umm, i'll let you have it with your v**** bath thing." I couldn't hold in my laugh. Its cute why she staying pure. I just didn't think she'll squirm around when we talk about it.
     
      "Ohh and Livey." I hum to her. Slowing sinking my body back down. "I don't blame Travis or the pack for anything. I was just angry when I said those things."
     
      "I get it Mery. We all say some hurtful things sometimes."
     
      Mery walked out. And I spend the remainder of my time soaking in a nice bath. And once I finish. I headed to work. Took out Sage's journal and continue to read through it. In small breaks. I worked on her potion spell. Getting the main reason and ingredient for it. Anything big that I can give the council. Thats all I mainly need.