Broken Passion

Broken Passion - Part 2

Flashback

"Sshhhh....shhhh...it's going to be ok...everything will be fine"

A gentle hand stroked my hair as I nuzzled into the soft fabric of a cotton night-shirt. I could feel myself snuffling and my stomach felt like butterflies. Shouting dented the little calm world I'd built for myself inside my head – Abby had her arms around me trying my best to calm me down but it seemed that she was just as unsure of what was happening...

"AAAH!" a yelp of pain came from downstairs. The yelp came from a female voice, I buried my face further into my sisters night-shirt.

The shouting continued for sometime before it went quiet and we heard footsteps coming up the stairs. The bedroom door opened silently....

"Girls? Girls, where are you? It's mum. Everything's going to be ok but some things are going to change" Abby poked her head out of the small wardrobe we were cramped. I saw mum in her night-out dress and bruises blossoming on her arms and cheekbones – there was some dried blood at the corner of her mouth where it had split

Mum crouched down in front of me on the bottom shelf, hand cupping my cheek before giving it a kiss...

"I love you baby." She did the same to Abby "I love you both so dearly and remember that mummy will always be right here" She gently pointed to my hearts – at the time, I didn't understand what this meant and I let her tuck me back into my bunk bed as she lead Abby out onto the landing. The last thing I heard before sleep overcame me was a gentle conversation, the sound of tears and some clunking movements.

In the morning, she was gone and so was Abby....

End of Flashback

"(f/n). Come on, wake up (f/n)" A muddled voice made it's way through my befuddled conscience. It sounded male....

"(f/n)...I'm sorry that I broke my promise to Abby...I swore that I'd take care of you" Levi...it was Levi...he was Abby's old dance partner and my former best-friend before we drifted apart. We were still in the same dance class sometimes but he always kept to himself. I never realized why...until now. It hit me then. Levi must've had feelings for Abby before she disappeared with my mother.

I forced my eyes. Tiredness quickly became the overwhelming emotion. I saw levi next to me – he'd obviously been crying.

"Levi..." my voice was soft and hoarse "Why are you here?" My voice became clearer and the question sounded more demanding.

"I came because I realized I broke my promise to Abby..." He sounded so miserable but something inside me twanged and I let my anger out.

"You broke your promise to Abby?? ABBY?? Did it ever occur to you that she was MY sister? Did it ever to occur to the after she left all I had was my dad and dancing. Frankly, dancing did more for me than me dad and you EVER did!" Normally, this wasn't me but now I realized something. Life had been such a mess for so long and all I did was block it out – just like a dream, trying to live my dancing dream....

Levi's expression was shocked as he searched for an answer "(f/n)...I....I...can" He stumbled and my anger fumed more – it felt so right to let it out but so wrong to let it out on Levi.

"You can what? You can explain? Go on then. Explain. Explain how after she left, you suddenly became colder than ice. Explain how my best friend BETRAYED me when I needed him the most." As I shouted the word betrayed at him, tears began to stream down my cheeks. Something in levi seemed to snap him back to reality as well.

"Do you hear yourself?" He hissed quietly at me "It's all about you and your pity party. Did it ever occur to you that abby was the last thing I had to rely on aside from dancing? Did it ever occur to you that we were in the same mess the WHOLE DAMN TIME?" After he said this, it seemed to hit us both like a realization.

We'd been so blind in our own messes the whole time that we forgot who really mattered to us. I just laid there on the hospital bed, not sure of what to say. Levi didn't say a word – he just got up and left. Right as the consultant came in.

The consultant took one look at my tears and sat down next to me. I leaned in to her like I did to Abby all those years ago, appreciating the comfort.

Weeks passed. Levi didn't come back to the hospital after that episode so my only visitor each day was my consultant, Beth. She'd visit me everyday – ask how I was getting on and if I was gaining weight. This question always hit me the worst but as time went by, it became easier to answer and I was getting stronger.

But still that whole gaped within me, loneliness enveloped me whenever I was on my own until I got a surprise visitor....

*AUTHORS NOTE*- Hehehe i hope you guys enjoyed this chapter -it's shorter than usual but i did try my best and took some sort of inspiration from the song at the top. Try and guess who the surprise visitor is - anyone who gets it right will get a shout out in the THIRD AND FINAL PART of Broken Passion and also the next chapter of Teardrop.