only love

part 1

Est pov
I'm getting ready to go to William as usual, but this time I'm more worried because the nanny spoke to me and told me that he's not feeling well. This boy, I've known for ten years,he doesn't like to admit his feelings. He thinks everyone will take advantage of him anyway. I finished getting ready, got into my car, and headed to William's house when I arrived. Jean"the nanny"came to me telling me to go up to him. When I went up and entered his room, i found him sleeping like an innocent child. He looked very cute. It seemed that he was also crying because his nose and cheeks were red. That big child didn't tell me anything. Anyway, I approached him and shook him lightly to wake him up. "Wille, I am here." Come on, wake up." He opened his eyes and was looking at me. As soon as he saw me, he straightened up, rubbing his eyes and smiling at me fakely, not like he was the same crying child I found a short while ago. "P'est, you're here. I thought you didn't come today because it's a holiday."
"How do you want me not to come when my big child seems sad and didn't tell me?" He looked at me angrily. "I am not a child. When will you be convinced that I am no longer that child? I am now an adult. You did not see what I did yesterday with that girl. Be.... "I interrupted him. The last thing I hoped for was William's Adventures with His Girls. Then I got up and walked away from him, but he grabbed my hand and brought me back to him. "What's wrong with you? You're the one telling me I'm child and you don't know that you're the only child here." He told me while he looked with that playful look. he makes me fall for him more and more, but Est control yourself, I released my hand from him and got up, "Now take a shower and come downstairs so we can have breakfast together." I was about to open the door and leave when suddenly I found him cornering me against the door and burying his face in my neck. I felt butterflies in my stomach. This playful boy. Anything related to him does a lot to me. "William... What are you doing, let me go and .." He interrupted me and spoke in a whispered tone against my neck, "Shsh, I now feel better after hugging you, so do not prevent me from your scent, which is my refuge." I felt goosebumps because of his whisper and his breath on my neck. I let him, then he continued his speech, "I am very tired.p'est from everyone around me I feel pressure. I love my job very much, but it just makes me unable to live like any normal person. I want to go anywhere without rumors spreading about me here and there. I want to love, date, and hold the hand of the one I love without fear of showing that I am... , this is my simplest wish, and even this I don't get." Then he started crying I could not find a better way to comfort him than to embrace him. After he finished crying, he moved away from me, but he still surrounded me against the door. He approached me this time and started kissing my neck. At that time, I felt that we were losing control, and if I let him continue, At that time, no one felt remorse except me, and William did not love me anyway. It was as if I was one of his girls, but I was the only fool who had been in love with him for ten years. So I gently pushed him away from me, opened the door, and went downstairs with my breathing and my irregular heartbeat.