I don't know how to love him

Don't

A few hours had passed and the two were still holding each-other, Monica had drifted off to sleep when chandler woke to her soft skin against his, he didn't want to disturb her, he wanted to stay close to her forever but he knew that simply wouldn't be possible.
He gently kissed her forehead as he looked up at her, his head laid upon her shoulder and her head was resting on his, he didnt want to disturb her but it was hard, they were so close with their embrace it was near impossible for him to move without fear of waking the wonderful woman who rested beside him.

Once again he sat staring into the beauty that was her face, he had feelings from her like a teenager and their first love. He kissed her head gently again and moved ever so slowly and silently to avid waking her, although his tempts were great he failed to realise she wasn't asleep anymore, she just kept her eyes closed and and remained silently, deep down she quite liked the attention the cute man was giving her.

She grumbled, pretending to have just woken up and she wiggled her way slightly distant from chandler, they locked eyes as she moved away, the moment was hot and steamy for her, she was looking into the ute guys eyes trying to hide the fact she had feeling for a guy she has seen naked and seen violently throw up his guts all in the span of less than 48 hours.

She quickly looked down at her lap, trying to hide the blushing red colour taking over her usually pale skinned face. She felt so flustered and wanted to run away like a little girl, as she began to lift her head slowly, she once again locked eyes with chandler, who was now unaware to him staring into her eyes once again. The two felt as if they were on a first date, but they were not.

Chandler so desperately wanted to pull her in and kiss her soft glossy lips, but he knew he couldn't. So he had to admit defeat and not, he had to hide those feelings for as long needs must.
However he was unaware of Monica's desire to lean in and kiss him, they were both too scared to admit how they felt. But they both had their reasons they didn't want Ross to feel betrayed by his best friend going out with his sister.

The two had remained silent the entire time until Monica chose to break the now very awkward silence.
We couldn't bear to stare at the cute mans face in silence any longer, it was eating her up inside.

"Chandler, we should probably move" Monica spoke in a soft voice.

The two had been sat in the same position for what felt like forever yet no time at all, Monica slowly wiggled to the edge of the bed and as she lifted herself up to slowly move to a standing position, chandler mumbled under his breath

"I wish you didn't have to go"

"did you say something?" Monica responded

She had heard him but she also didn't want to leave but she equally didn't want to get too close to him, she knew just like every other crush or lovers in her life they would just walk out, she was scared of commitment and love. But chandler didn't know that, he just thought how cute and loving she was and how he wanted to hold her close to his heart for the rest of his life.

As she edged closer to the door to leave his bedroom she turned around and simply smiled at him, she didn't know what to say, she was hurt by not being his but hurt more by the fear of being his.

She turned the doorknob to relieved herself from the tense situation she found herself in.
She opened the door slowly and as she did chandler rose from the bed, still half naked.
He had forgotten he was shirtless so he blushed again and grabbed the bedsheet to cover himself

"Chan, there's no point covering yourself we were jsut hugging, I've seen you shirtless twice in the last day." Monica spoke before a giggle began to come out of her mouth.

He looked at her and tried not to laugh but he couldn't help himself, as the two laughed the mood had changed to be one of less stress and the vibe changed to be this calm yet playful way. These two couldn't help but laugh at this situation to distract from the fact it was so awkward to begin with.

Monica blew chandler a jokey kiss goodbye and wished him to get better and she headed for the front door. Chandler snuck up behind her

Monica undid the chain of the door and began to twist the handle until she felt a hand grab her waist and hit breath on her neck.

"Don't.."