The Feelings i can't express

First one

I'm always wondering why did our family turned out into this?! My father and my brother is not in good terms. My mom is suffering because of this situation. And even me. They think i don't care about our family conflicts, they think i'm dumb! But hell ya all' i carry ur problems within my shoulder too! And i've got this friend of mine that pushed me to tell her about my past. I was really pissed off! But thnanks god! I was able to get a hold of myself and be composed... That time I realy wanted to outburst! How could she ask like that! I haven't even valued her as a friend. I mean we just hanged-out for a short time and she acted like that!!!! Aaaaghhhh!!!! She's starting to get into my nerves!!!!

Phew! I'm a random person... So i just tap the keyboard and type the thoughts popping out of my mind.