Use Me

Firework

"Stop teasing," Freen begs Rebecca.

"What do you want me to do then?," Rebecca whispers coyly against Freen's ear while she lays on top of the older woman, stroking her painfully slow, making her squirm and gasp.

"I want you inside me," Freen pants out.

"Are you ready for me?," Rebecca husks out in between nips and nibbles on Freen's ear. Testing the waters, Becca dips ever so lightly inside Freen's opening making the woman under her gasp.

They have since moved their activities inside the bedroom and on the bed, but Freen has not even reached the middle of the bed before Rebecca pounced on her. Now, they are just a mess of tangled limbs and bodies strewn out haphazardly near the bottom edge of the California King.

"I'm already soaked down there, I think it's pretty clear," Freen groans back, the frustration already apparent in her voice.

"That's not what I meant Freen," Becca replies punctuating her statement with a sharp bite on Freen's ear making it known to the other woman the gravity of her question.

"I have wanted you for a long time Becca," Freen admits sincerely.

"Why didn't you tell me? You knew that I was in love with you," Becca husks out, stroking Freen's wetness then teasing Freen's opening by pushing in a single finger one knuckle deep. Freen moans at the action and starts pushing her hips against Becca's ministration, attempting to engulf more of Becca.

Freen gently tugs at Rebecca, pulling the younger away from her neck that she was currently sucking on so they can look each other in the eyes. Despite their current position, this was still a conversation they had to have face to face.

"It took a while, but I was supposed to," Freen tells Becca, finally opening up to her about this secret that she has guarded so cautiously for the past 5 years.

"Why didn't you?," Rebecca asks, her eyes wide searching for answers.

"You left," Freen whispers back.

Rebecca exhales and closes her eyes tightly after hearing that. She feels a tight constricting pain in her chest keeping her from breathing. She feels this deep painful gnawing in the middle of her stomach like a wild animal was clawing at and eating up her insides. Tears fall from the corners of her still closed eyes without Becca realizing it, only when Freen brushes her tears away with her thumb while cupping Becca's cheek did Becca realize that she has started to shed tears. Tears from regret, tears mourning what could have been for them.

              Use me as you please

              Break my bones one by one

              And use them to build  shelter

             For when life and people are cruel

             I will shield you from danger

          

Freen witnesses it right in front of her, etched on Rebecca's face how the younger woman's heart is shattering all over again. If only she can bring back time, or if only she can piece Becca's heart together right then she would, but the only thing she can do is to pull Becca towards her and kiss her tears away.

As for Rebecca, the only thing she can do is to reach deep inside of Freen, to try to be one with the woman she loved for so long even from across oceans. Two deft fingers penetrate the older woman slowly.  Freen's hands fly to Rebecca's back clawing at it definitely breaking skin.