Found my apricity 🎀

1) introduction...Kenji dex / laira

"Love is something only lucky people get .. and that currently isn't for me"

I got out of my car and went inside my apartment closing the door behind hanging my coat behind the door , I sat at the sofa looking around the room before I lean my back on the couch

Love is something people  lucky people get people who doesn't get to love.. are they even exceptional enough??? Who knows , I saw people who are clingy ... I saw people who act like they meant for each other but deep down it ended up bad ,what is love ??? , can love can be felt ? I been so focused on my career... yet am barely enough... ,people want me for my looks and wealth not for who am ... who I actually am what is going on , what is wrong with me ?

All I can do is hear the clock around me go tick tick the sounds of wind passing through the trees with each tick tick  sound the clock makes my mind warder here and there like an endless train.. just going without knowing where to stop.. I have achieved everything expect peace...everything expect but peace

I sighed and looked around and saw a picture of laira... she was the reason that am here... days have passed .. months had passed years had passed... yet waiting for you never ended....
Just like my wardering thoughts

Oh..sorry I
Forgot to Introduce myself well.. certainly the author choose me as the main lead my name is
Kenji dex...the main male lead of the story hope you love me cause you have to..

Am kenji dex , the grumpy.. rude guy of the story who certainly doesn't have any hope in love, love is only for the worthless... and weaklings

People tend to lie about it..lies lays within love...that's all I know

Am a billionaire of dex company.. I hate people I hate them so much.. always being noisy and irritating they don't mind their business always middling in peoples shit..

It's 12 am already shit.. am going to sleep

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"Ahhhh why can't I get this shape right!!"

I yelled while trying to get a shape of a pot while making pottery.. I have many hobbies and it's one of them I carry around many aesthetics most of all modesty.. and act of attitude such as kindness is important i believe I can be top life and here am balancing my romanticise life with colours and love .. I believe love can change anyone , I mean literally anyone and words has power.. power that can easily fix or break things

I heard a word called apricity once it's means "warmth of the sun in winter nights"

Such an amazing word right, am an hopeless romance type but there was never a time where I had no hope in love .. I love too deep yet I have no one to love.. but I have my family .. my friends and they are my biggest boost!

"Finally I gotta shape of the part right" after I finished it I placed it on the wooden table and it will take days to dry so I left it to dry and washed my hands and took my apron off me , I took my bag and went to my home..

I almost forgot I live with my sister eshaal

And oh my I almost forgot
     My name is laira azara .. my family is known for they're money and family full of doctors and engineers will I thought I would be a very disappointing one to my family cause I choose art over such professional careers but here am with my parents standing proud!

Most of the time it's always sisters who are evil right but no my sister is my best friend the only person I trust the most.. I trust everyone but not with everything the only person who is worth of my whole trust is my sister eshaal azara
My warrior

She's a fashion designer... she's popular one she has her own clothing line
Opticity zar , her clothing brand name she's a millionaire herself

Oh shit its 12 I will wake her up if I rang the bell so I had a key to the house so I opened it and entered to see her waiting for me on the couch

"Hehe sorry I was late" I said

She gave me nod and said "go and sleep "

I gave a nod and went to my room

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Hey guys !!!!

It's meee you're author

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This story is a mature content about a guy named kenji who despises love and about a girl who truely believes in love this story has many tragic in they're like blood , hating , divorce .. many negative sceneces this story is a deeply connected story to my life ! Hope you all love it