Coming back to you - (On Hold)

chapter 4

When I got to class, I quickly apologised to teacher,walking quickly to the back of the class looking at the my hopefully new friend Aimee.
Which I am not sure of after the incident before. My eyes focusing on the empty seat beside her.

" Is it alright if I sit here? " i said awkwardly.

" Oh yeah sure" Aimee said using her  usual cheery voice, giving me a big grin. How does this girl manage to be so cheery all the time. I wish I could be so cheery, no worry in the world. Just living my life full of happiness.

"Thanks" i said happily  almost trying to match her cheerful attitude in an attempt to soak some of it up myself.

After a long pause of silence, Aimee spoke.

"so I didn't mean to be nosey but I couldn't help but notice that you know The knight aka Blake knight.

Oh so thats what they call him now.

Even though when we were little he still got lots of attention. Mostly for his love and talent of football. Which has obviously caused boys envy him and the girls to  swoon over him.

But I do understand what people are getting from the nickname, he was and still is  truly an amazing person inside and out and i can't fault that. He was my prince, my knight. The way he graces   himself is full of friendliness and magnetisium, that I knew that anyone would want to be his  friend.
I just worry about the intentions,do they want to be his friend for friendship or social status.

Even after all these years I have always worried about him. Even after he burned the tale we shared into a pile of ash.

A fluttering spark still lay in the depths of my heart unconditionally. Even if he betrayed me and left me  alone is this scary world ,I couldn't  hate him no matter how hard I tried.

I awoke from my thoughts  to Aimee staring at me intently, waiting for my answer.

I should tell her, but the thought brings tears to my eyes. My voice starting to break at the very thought.

"We used to  be friends" i say using a bleak tone. I refrain from telling her that he was my best friend.
As the pain is too raw,just thinking about the friendship we had and the  utter change is hard to bare.Even after all these years.

"Oh I'm soooooo jealous" she said longingly.

"He's sooooooooo hot" she said full of longing. I swear I saw slobber drip from her mouth.
 
Which kinda freaked me out a bit. We never had a romantic relationship we were too young to know what it really meant but we both cared for each other unconditionally from the day we met.

Everyone used to assume that we we're going out because at that age you dont really think that a boy and girl can be friends. Sometimes i wished that one day I could be his girlfriend, that he could hold my hand in public. He could do all that cute boyfriend stuff that you only hear of in books. That's what I wanted, well I did want until he ripped my heart out of my chest.
Streding our friendship into a million pieces. But I don't know anymore after seeing him my feelings are spiraling all other the place. The familiar feelings that had buried itself at the back of my heart had awoken.

"Well it wasn't all flowers and rainbows, I will tell you that" i said with a tiny bit too much attitude. I probably shouldn't of said that. I just  don't want it to be seen as something it's not or in my case was not. However hard i had wished when we were friends .

She looked at me giving me a look of confusion. Oops maybe I was coming off a  bit too strong.This is awkward.
Oh yes I should do what I normally do best change the conversation topic.

"So tell me the  need to knows  about the school" i said in hopes of swaying  away from a certain boy and our past friendship.

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Me and Aimee had talked the whole lesson.She told me all the do's and don't. She told me about the usual social groups which roamed the schools halls. The nerds,The jocks you get the point. She also told me that a particular mean girl named Alexia, who  roamed the halls  like a  queen. She was pretty much the typical mean girl, who happened  to be super  popular. Which i think  was probably because people were scared of her extremely bitchy personality.  She also told me that Blake and his two friends Tyler and Nathan  ruled the school as the royals.

When class was over it was break time,I looked through my planner to see what I had next. Although I was only doing really,  to make it look like I am busy.  The amount of looks and stares people arev giving me is making me feel extremely uncomfortable. Sending my face a deep shade of red.

As i was walking to my next class with Mrs Kensington for biology. I recognise a very familiar set  eyes burning through my soul.

I quickly flick my head around to find Blake staring at me intently with a scrowl on his face.

My eyes meet his and we stare at eachother for mere seconds to other people. But to me it felt like hours. Which probably sounds incredibly cliché. But I now understand this Feeling;this feeling of being buried so deeply in the other person's soul that the people around you dissappear.

The feeling is an unreal almost magical moment. My heart started to beat rapidly in my chest. This immense feeling of desire and love tingles around my soul, spiraling  around me like being struck by lightning. I couldn't stop it; it was burring itself deeper into my soul.

At that moment I realised that this emotions wasn't the type of feeling you felt with your bestfriend.
It was the feeling of love and passion. Unable to stay calm at the realisation. It was spreading around my soul,the feeling was nothing like when we were little it was full of desire.

I quickly walked away not looking back hopeing that I was just being dramatic. Because at the end of the day I was a Sixteen year old girl,who dreams from a very young  age to fall in love.  But I knew this feeling it was so familiar but it had been buried for so long.

At that moment I put  the thought at the back of my mind,trying to bury it deeper and deeper.

But all I knew is that my love life just got whole lot more complicated. This was only the first day what was going to happen tommorow.

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