A Week In Your Arms

A summary of old letters

Liam

Maybe I missed you more than I would like to admit. I miss your smile, your arrogance, your little habits—you weren't aware of those small things you do but I did...even your flaws that I grew to hate...I miss you for we were only dumb teenagers back then. I missed that part of our life where we had nothing to worry about but graduating. Now, it had been years since I had forgotten most about you. If I were to see you again, would I run towards you or somewhere else like a coward who, despite everything, still couldn't face you?

But often enough, I was still able to imagine that smile...where your imperfect teeth were seen. Despite the fact, that I can't remember your voice and face now.

The longing part of me had always wondered...Do you miss me just as I do with you? Maybe I am a hopeless cause. I can't seem to let go of the past when things were good. I hope to hear your answer no matter how painful it would be to hear your voice again. I want to forget you but my heart doesn't accept it. I know I should, it's only fair...

I hate this part of me, the one that misses you so much.

Tell me you hate me. I don't want to fall in love with you again...even if we don't meet. Talk to me in my dreams or memories, for one last time.

It feels so wrong to mutter your name now perhaps because I know you won't turn around to smile at me again. You won't be there, is that why I hate the mention of you so much?

Because deep down I know you. You wouldn't go back to remember the past, you can only move forward. Forgetting things and setting your own goals. I used to like that part of you...Now that I am one of the things you don't look forward to...I hate it. I hate that you're so understanding yet you can't seem to look back.

Are we both selfish for wanting things?

I still look forward to everything...but I know you.

You won't and I will continue to forget everything about you as time goes on.

Maybe I'm not ready to lose you. I don't want you to become another memory of mine.

A/N: The original chapter was changed! Currently revising and thinking of ways to make the plot more good.