the dancing butterfly

the washroom

Author pov
Pete know that neon wants to talk to Charlie and he just made up an excuse for them all though Pete just want them to clear and apologize properly he doesn't really want himself to involve with these couple matters... Right both of them infornt of the elevator waiting for the doors to open.... Neon side eyeing Charlie just to find a different expression which he never really saw.. neon felt chill... Both enter time to time neon look at him and try to say something but failed....they reach to the lobby it was silent and dim light.. Charlie step out from the elevator neon was behind him.... Charlie stop at his spot looking at Charlie neon also stop at his spot there is a small distance between them neon was affarid like he knows what is going to happen and he is not ready... Charlie turn towards neon and said with a cold expression

Charlie - are you fine

Neon - (nod yes)

Charlie - look at you becoming a skeleton

Neon - ( his eyes becoming gloomy )

Charlie - ( looking at his condition)

Neon - I.. I am sorry ( he is trying so hard to cry and not able to speak)

Charlie - let's break up

Neon - ( glup his saliva) cha... Charlie see .. i  will not-

Charlie - I don't want us to suffer more.....

Neon - ( tears drop from his eyes his mind becomes blank) no.. no please I know I did so bad but-

Charlie - it going to be fine and easy if we break our relationship....

Neon - no no... Don't say something like these..

Charlie - ( he still can't see him crying)

Neon - please don't say these Charlie I can't leave... I already suffer so much please don't... (Tears continually falling from his eyes) I am begging you.... Please don't just give me a chance I will be nice -

Charlie - I can't give you chance I love... I love someone else...

Neon - (he can see the shin in his eyes) no.. noo noo please don't.. do these to me

Charlie - I don't know how to explain but please understand me..

Neon - (don't know what to say and move forward to hug Charlie and he didn't stop him) I am sorry... I am so so sorry I did wrong because of me you suffer all the time I make your joy into sadness I am sorry...

Charlie - (hug him back) don't say that you have gone through more things then me .

Neon - I am sorry I will never gonna hurt you (break the hug and look at him with his gloomy eyes and within seconds he kiss him for the last time... He feels that warm for the last time he can feel that kid is so shocked he didn't dare to look at him and run to the elevator and for the last time he look at him with a sad teary eyes) what I did I really can't handle the pain I know that these was coming but still I wam not prepared to let him go but I don't want to force him why...it always me in the end who get hurt and end up crying....maybe in next life I will become a nice person for you maybe in next life I will become a nice brother....but for now I will carry these pain as my punishment (sad chuckle) wooow....why...I have....a life without love how miserable....no mom loves no dad loves get a brother and then broke his trust to.....why....again lonely....(Wipe his tears and stright went to his room)

Charlie - (put his hand on his lips) (in mind) there was no warmness.... No there was never warmness in the kiss it was always blank like a blackhole ...when he(babe) kiss me I get cool sensation in my body.... (Went to his car and start it while driving) but why I am being selfish I am also at  fault.... I never really love him it was my loneliness and then it's becomes attachment in one word all of these was a act if I rejected him the day he proposed me then I guess these would have never come or he would never go through of all these....I will apologize to him..he is really nice if we look at our bond It was amazing (tears rolled down from his eyes) he cares about me when I was child he used feed me,play with me and protect me....and see now I was not even able to pay him back with kindness he loves me the most and I hurt him I wish I never said him 'yes' I   should have honest with my feeling from the starr (sad chuckle) I wish he forget he ever love me (wipe his tears)