Durga | 18 +

~ First Step~

Durga's pov ~

Sun rays peek through my window as if playing hide and seek but it's scorch caused panic within my mind and i sat up in the bed abruptly. Glancing at the other side, i see the spot empty . Running my hand over the place where he slept i find it cold , the body pressed against it was long gone. I look towards the attached bathroom but no voice of water running can be heard , and then only i realized that may be i am late .

I get up from the bed , the pain tingling fresh between my legs . I wrap my self up with the quilt, still half naked under it , only in my petticoat and blouse and then hurried towards the bathroom limping, grabbing a pair of fresh petticoat and blouse along my way .

I bare myself in front of the mirror and discarded the quilt along with my used clothes. And then i just stared at my face . The darkness around my eyes , the hollowness of my cheeks, the slight redness in my lips gave me the reminder of the previous night .

Yesterday's events were everything that i had dreamed of and worse . The night was the most confusing, painful and pleasing night that i ever had but also the most terrifying.

My eyes travel from my face down my body . My neck filled with bruises , is turning blue by each passing hour , giving me a rundown of each and every action that had been worked on my body. The marks of hand prints along the ridge from my clavicle till my tibia , reminding me of every turmoil i had to endure. But . Confusing and surprisingly, after everything that happened yesterday i just can't seem to hate him because maybe at some point i was enjoying what he was doing to my body as much as he were and maybe also the fact that i had been warned before and prepared for something like this taking place.

But my portrayal of his characteristics is way wrong then his actual self . The self that i portrayed was soft yet broody, moody yet happy, dominant yet assuring but he was most but also none . He was indeed broody, moody and dominating but he was far from being soft, happy and assuring. Yesterday i myself got a prove of it . He didn't much assured me before the pain but did ask for my consent, but at the same time after everything got over , he just rolled of me and headed his way . No talk , no cuddles , and no concern. Maybe that's what he likes.

But even after everything i still hope for a happy ending for us , not because for me but for him . The beautiful gift i received from him adds to my hope .

Taking a deep breath i smile, for the first time this morning, praying the almighty to give me some courage and strength but i know somehow at somepoint everything will work out as it should.

Wandering off my thoughts i hopped into the shower and took a bath hastily, cleaning myself up properly and getting rid of the dirt.

Coming out of the bathroom only in my petticoat and blouse, i quickly select a beautiful yet simple red saree and changed into it , then freshly combed my hair , filling the partition with vermilion and applied a small dot with the vermilion on my forhead. And then i cleaned the bed , toget rid of those dirty sheets discarded on the floor i soake them up in detergent water and also noticed a small patch of dried blood on it . Not necessarily thinking much i hurried out of the room only to met with complete silence as i walk inside the kitchen.

Winter is just around the corner maybe that's why everyone is not out of their rooms yet . And also the sun is playing hide and seek , sometimes giving its scorching heat and then disappearing and then repeating the process again .

Admist everything a thought ran wild in my mind ; if everyone is not up yet then why is he not in bed and also where is he ?

Pushing the thoughts aside i step inside the kitchen smiling to myself. Today is my first rasoi and this is my chance to impress everyone including him .

I thought about making some parathas ( chapati cooked in oil ) and tofu curry ( panner bharta ) along with some sooji ka halwa and kesar lassi . Smiling in satisfaction i started to work on my idea. But firstly i took blessings from agni dev .Halfway through my cooking i heard some footsteps approaching me , i turned and smiled at the intruder .

"Bahu , kya kar rahi han "? My mother in law asked me politely.

"Bas maaji nasta bana rahi thi , bas ho hi gaya han " i replied.

"Par bahu itni subha subha kyun abhi toh sirf panch ( 5am) baj raha han aur iss ghar me koi bhi shaksh ( person) chey ( 6am) baje ke age nhi uthta han " she said to me .

I came closer and i bend down to touch her feet seeking blessing, feeling her hand patting my head i straighten up and then hissed , closing my eyes feeling my back crack a little.

I lift up my face and said to her " maaji hamau ko kachu pata na tha issiliya subha subha uth gayi aur socha khana bana du " she smiled in response.

" nhi ,bahu itni subha uthne ki koi zarurat nhi han , mein a hi rahi thi tujhe bulane fir dekha ki tu rasore mein khana bana rahi han , par koi baat nhi " she said to my gently .

But with a lot of courage and fath i ask her something that has been bothering me since i woke up .

" maaji ek baat puchu ?" I asked .

"Han kyun nhi , puch "

"Hamau jab subha jab ankh khuli toh dekha hi wo kamre me nhi han , wo kaha gaye honge ?" I ask her quietly.

"Vidyut ko subha subha tehelna jane ka shokh han kuchi der mein a jayega , tu chinta na kar " she replied with a smile .

" wase kya banaya han nashte mein ?" My mother in law asked.

" maaji kuch aloo ke parathe , paneer bharta aur meethe me sooji ka halwa " i replied .

"Wah bohot badhiya , bas tu thore papad bhi sekh dena , sabko bare pasand han . Aur han thora phal bhi kat dena , mere bete to bohot pasand han " she pat my head lovingly and then went away to arrange for the puja .

I nod her at and smiled. The only way to a man's heart is by food and i will use it as my first step to get in his .

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