You're a monster
An annoying, selfish asshole of a monster
Why?
Why did you take away my life?
Just to make me a mere pawn
In your little games that I had no business with
I was satisfied with my life
Keeping to myself and ignoring others
Minding my own thoughts
And dwelling in my blaring music
I didn't even bother with the deafening crowds
Or poked into their lives like you do
But instead of leaving me alone like I want
You so mercilessly shot me
And dragged me to your stupid schemes
When I clearly wanted no part in it
Now I was forced to participate for your entertainment
Being made your damn proxy without my consent
Fighting for my lonely life back
Thrice
So when you decide to toy with me more
In an excuse to lure me to your trap
And join in your dull, pathetic bets
So just when I thought you really cared
Despite your insufferable snotty attitude
Or your intolerable prissiness
My feelings of compassion-- and possibly love towards you
Were overwhelmed with anger, hurt, and betrayal
All this time I longed to kill whoever brought me here
The very person who lodged a bullet in my cold heart
And tortured me in his precious pandemonium
Only to find out that he was the very one I held so dear
Someone I thought understood me
Someone who I thought could relate to me
After all these years of keeping myself shut
Stubbornly clinging to the motives of not trying to understand everyone
Or anyone at all
As the final moment draws near
Both with guns in hand
And you slowly count your way to zero
I couldn't bear to look into those gorgeous, violet eyes
Let alone even try to lift the cold metal contraption with shaky hands
Instead drop it
And let my tears flow
Regretting that I couldn't do what I wanted so badly
Even if Shibuya's life was on the line
Then as you count to the last number
I take a deep, choked- up breath
5, 4, 3...
I brace myself for the bullet
2, 1
Then I finally look up into those cold lavender orbs
Knowing that it's the last thing I'll see
0
*BANG!*
As I fall limply the last thing I hear
Is your devilish infuriating, giggle
(That I've come to love)
Wishing instead the last thing I heard
Was you exchanging your response
Or even a kiss
To the last thing I could have said:
I love you
