Ceci balagot' cousin(Comfort/angst)

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Tw: mentions of self harm,suicide etc
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Y/n pov:
I lay on my bed not wanting to get up, I feel like crying but nothing comes out. The mattress, once a haven of comfort, felt like a bed of nails beneath me. The sheets, usually soft and inviting, were rough against my skin, a physical manifestation of the sandpapery texture of my emotions. The ceiling, once a canvas for daydreams, now felt like a suffocating, heavy lid. The air in my room, normally filled with the hum of my own quiet contentment, was thick with the weight of unshed tears. I have been struggling with self harm and depression for years with no one to talk to , My mind was a storm, a tempestuous sea of thoughts crashing and churning, leaving a wreckage of self-doubt and despair in their wake. Every word, every interaction, every glance replayed on a loop, each one a nail hammered into the coffin of my already fragile self-esteem." Y/n ! Come say hi to your relatives!" My mom shouted,interrupting my thoughts, it turns out that my cousins from my mother's side had come to visit. I got up and went to the bathroom to clean myself up,as I looked into the mirror I saw what's left of what used to be bright and cheerful and now someone sallowed by misery with dark circles under their eyes, I washed the tear stains off my face and hid my cuts under my long sleeves,as I came out of my room,I made sure to hide my blades in my pockets

Ceci pov:
I haven't visited y/n and her family in a while, but when I saw them I was shocked to see y/n so... different, I thought to myself, what happened?...the once vibrant and cheerful soul, now carried a heavy burden that cast long shadows over her once-radiant smile.
"Ceci! How lovely to see you.you're so grown up now, how has acting been for you?" Y/n's mom said "lovely to see you too,it's been great,I've learned so much and made so many friends along the way " I replied " wonderful, how about you and y/n catch up while me and your parents chat at the dinner table" she said. I went over to y/n , their eyes looking down at the floor "hey y/n, what's up? You okay? Wanna chat?" I asked. Y/n' s lips parted but no words escaped their eyes filled with unshed tears that threatened to shatter the illusion of composure she had carefully constructed. I sensed her pain and reached out to take her hand."how bout we go to your room?" I asked as she slowly guided me to their room.