"Wake up. I said don't you ever sleep Steffi!"
I opened my eyes and realized that I was just dreaming.
I wished I didn't woke up.
I really wished I didn't.
Waking up is a nightmare.
Mommy is a nightmare.
My life is a nightmare.
Reality is a nightmare.
Except him .....
"Sonia! What the hell are you doing?!"
Daddy came rushing to me.
Dad ...
I cannot find my voice.
All I can do is cry and cry.
"Are you okay, baby?"
I shook my head.
I'm not okay, daddy. Come and save me.
''How dare you hurt Stef?!! She's all mine. All mine!!!"
Daddy pulled mommy away and they left my room.
This is not the first time mommy did this to me.
She's always angry at me especially during nighttime and whenever daddy arrives from work.
I don't know what's going on with her. We were good before.
Everything was alright until one night, where birds were resting and bats are out for hunting, she entered my room.
As I approach mommy to kiss her, I stopped at the sight of her.
She looks pale and frightened or .. Angry? I don't know. I can't understand her state.
I asked her what was wrong, but then she grabbed me by the arm and held my shoulder so tight.
"Ouch, mommy. It hurts."
I cried.
"Shhh. Don't use this."
She removed the pink clip from my hair.
"But why, mommy? I like that clip."
"Just don't use this again. I'll buy you another one."
"No mommy! I like that one!"
My tantrums hit me, maybe because I'm used to get what I want.
Because they always give me what I wanted.
"Shut up!!!!!"
*slaps*
It was the first time mommy shouted at me, and the first time she ever laid hands on me.
Since then, her supposed to be giving me a "good night kiss" , turned to be hurting me instead.
