HEAVENLY SINS | JAKEHOON

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Jake is currently staring at the mirror as he fixes his hair with the comb, getting ready to head back home with Sunghoon.

As he do so, the memory of them yesterday flashes back in his mind.. making him smile midway.

That was the best feeling that Jake ever had.

He don't care anymore if Sunghoon and him is still in their fuck buddy relationship, he don't care if these may turn out that just acts, he'll act dumb and willingly get himself fooled.

But he doubt that, he knows Sunghoon better than anyone.

This isn't an act and it would never be.

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As they walk their way out the café and look for a cab, Jake decided to break the silence.

"so.." at one word, he made Sunghoon turn immediately.

he looked at him in the eye, "what.. are we?"

A pause.

Shock was evident on Sunghoon's expression, Jake could clearly tell that his mind was not prepared to answer a totally random question that came out of nowhere.

"i mean like.. i like you.. and i'm not sure if you like me too but based from what happened yesterday, it got my hopes up, but like i still don't want to assume so i'm asking what are we.." Jake explains.

They're definitely not friends, not strangers either, they were fuck buddies but it felt like all is different now, and to tell you the truth.. they stopped making love since the blind date.

This was the first time someone asked Sunghoon a "what are we"? question. And.. he know he's a smart person yet.. he have no any idea what to respond.

I mean.. Jake was really different from others, his difference was so evident, he was the only one whom stayed this longer by my side.

He's the only person that made me feel so many unfamiliar things, he's the only one who can make my heart sometimes or actually always go crazy, it always give me chills, i couldn't explain it clearly but it's like in the movies where their heart beats fast when the killer starts chasing them.

That's how i can describe what i'm feeling everytime i see him, only the difference is, Jake isn't a killer.

We're not in a horror movie.

Whenever i fantasize about being in a relationship with someone, the partner i'm with was faceless before, but now, whenever i think about it, Jake comes in my mind.

He became the person my mind think whenever i imagine a future relationship with someone.

I've fallen for him, not just now.. but since from the beginning.

I'm aware but just couldn't bring myself from saying these to him.

But i'm really 100% sure that i love him.

[ these was all Sunghoon's thoughts ]

He looked down, around, to think of the right words to say. It was easy to recite in his mind but having Jake infront of him suddenly made him all nervous and forget all of the deepest words he was supposed to say.

A simple "i like you" would do but he knows.. "like" isn't deep as "love", he loves Jake, he loves how he blushes everytime he flirts, how he gets annoyed everytime he teases him, how he softly smiles at him, how he colors his surroundings everytime he see him, how warm it feels to have him in his embrace, he love everything.

And he want Jake to know all of that.

Jake bit his lip, Sunghoon has been silent.

He's not dumb to not take the sign, he can clearly tell what Sunghoon's body language indicates, "nevermind", he smiled out of it.