i just need a shady spot to rest my head.
Everything is white space, all going on for infinity in every direction. I feel like im going to pass out. My head is crying out in pain. but nothing comes out of my mouth. no screams or cries. i want to cry though i want to scream. But I can't. I've spent my whole life putting up a fake smile telling people that i'm okay even though i'm not and i never have been.
My whole body aches. Far in the distance i see a tree. It has bear branches but it provides shade. Shade from my depression. Shade from my life. It's way too far away. I can't eal with this anymore. I drop to my knees as i start to cry silently. I hope someone would here me but there was no chance of that. I was lost.
Eventually I lay down. Not in the shade but in the middle of nowhere. In the middle of white space. I close my eyes and slowly start to fall asleep. My boody feals like it's falling. i don't flinch.
