We live in a world where your worth, your value, your entire existence is measured by money and how much you have to give, to spend, on you at any given time.
Friendships denied, happiness denied, joy denied and if you're of a particular social economical group then don't expect anyone to care about you at all no matter how kind you are, no matter how much you care as your worth to them and everyone else is measured by how fake you are and how much money you have.
Slap on a happy smile and pretend, don't let your pain show, got friends? Probably not as just any money you have matters more to them than your life and how much you need to not be alone, friendships are not good currency in our society after all, only currency and your worth. You'll be accused of buying friendship by them if you're too human like if you're tired, if you're lonely, if you're being anything other than a living ATM.
It doesn't matter if you've reached your breaking point and ended your life or came very close and somehow survived with a lot of injuries, what matters is the money. Just the money.
Not dead yet? Well that just isn't cricket now is it? You can't expect anyone to care, not friends, not anyone, when you've gone and survived as all that matters is the money. No one cares you see, it's what we're taught all through our lives is not to care about anyone else, to look down on one another as our only value to society is how much money we have.
That is how society works, how it's always worked, how it will always work. Your life has no value, no meaning, no bearing. Only the money.
Who cares that you spent over a year financially supporting friends in need and supported them even when you ended up burned out months prior and fought every urge to turn your back and walk away, who cares? What matters is the money, just the money.
What does it matter that you were pushed to breaking point and saw nothing but the need to die, that your survival instinct didn't kick in to stop you, no one cares! All that matters is the money!
This is a capitalist society built around the ideals of money before lives, where every penny serves the almighty self-proclaimed elites, your life has no value whatsoever!
Who cares that you're in pain and really need someone, anyone, especially friends to reach out and help you feel less alone in your recovery, who cares? No one, that's who. Now what about the money?
That's all that matters, all that will ever matter, just the money. Your life has no merit, no value, no worth. How sad that you survived when the money would serve a higher purpose while you're cursed to spend your worthless, meaningless, empty life alone without a single friend, a single moment of joy and purpose to help you have a reason to hold on.
No one cares.
All that matters is the money.
