Thoughts

Fear

My fear is to not live but to still be alive. 

I guess if that is the case I would rather die. 

There may be a God, but also may not. 

If he were there would he really be one to just sit around and plot? 

 I am not sure I believe. 

 I have been through to much shit to just sit back, wait, and see.

 I want to live while I can, and not have to depend on Man. 

I am part of Man, and it is apart of me.

 Even though to some people, I am to damn invisible to even see. 

I have tried hard to be good, and hard to be free. 

Honestly, I am so damn tired of not really being me. 

Tired of being a slave to anyone who needs something done.I

f I gave into them all, I would hate to see what i would become.

 I am too tired to be happy now.

 All I feel able to do is sit back and put back on my fake ass smile.