Dead But Alive

Chapter 8: Just have to put it into action

Tw: Blood

Pov: Erin

I slowly walked upstairs to my bedroom where I saw Lex sleeping in my bed. I held the gun tighter. I didn't want to do this. But what other choice did I have? A tear ran down my cheek as I loaded the gun and pointed it at her head. Just shoot, she's not your friend, she deserves to die. What if the police get involved? Why the hell would a mafia contact the police? That's stupid. I remembered what Ace had taught me. How to shoot and hold the gun. I close my eyes and take a breath. Then I open my eyes and pull the trigger. A loud bang echoes around the room. I look down to see Lexs head bleeding out. The blood soaked the pillowcase and sheets and soon she didn't just have my red highlights. All of her hair was covered in blood. I heard running coming to the room and I quickly escaped through the window just before Ace, Xaveir, and jett came rushing in. I heard Ace scream and I just wanted to break down right there.

"Erin!" I heard him yell. I'm pretty sure I even heard Xavier sob. Now all that's left is to wait a week or two and then I go back home tell them everything and pray to god they believe me. I looked down at my hands and saw the gun. My hands trembled and I thought I was about to break down right on the spot. More tears streamed down my face as I realized what I did. But I had to. If I didn't Ace,Xaveir, and Jett would be in deep shit right now. I was tempted to call Cassie but what would I say to her? 'Hey, I just killed a girl who was trying to pretend to be me so that she could get more information about our family. Can you pick me up?'. I had told her about how my brothers were in the Mafia and she still wanted to be my friend. That's when I knew she would be there for me no matter what. Even though she is my only friend, she will be the best one I ever have. Fuck it. She's my only hope. I took out my phone, I was a couple of blocks away from the house. She almost immediately picked up which surprised me because it was like three in the damn morning.

"Erin, I saw the news. Are you okay? Are you in danger?" She asked urgently.

"No, Cassie, I messed up. I messed up so bad I need you to come pick me up right now. I don't know what to do, please come and get me." I sobbed.

"Whoa,whoa,whoa. Calm down. I am getting your location right now. I will be there in less than five minutes. Stay on the call with me until I get there." Cassie comforted me.

"Please hurry." I cried. Not even three minutes later Cassie pulled up and I ran into the car still holding the gun. Cassie sees the gun and pushes her back against the seat.

"I'm not going to hurt you. It has my fingerprints on it so if I leave it anywhere I am done for." I will explain. Cassie relaxes a bit.

"Still, why do you have a gun?" Cassie asked.

"What I'm gonna say is going to sound like I had too many drinks but I promise I am completely sober." I say.

"Hey, I'll believe you no matter how crazy the situation is." She comforted me.

"There has been this girl. She has been all around the outside of our house and she disguised herself just like me. Hair and everything. She was part of our rival mafia and apparently we had a package that didn't get delivered to them by accident. So just this night I was going into my room and two men from the rival mafia along with the girl whose name is apparently Lex. The men kidnapped me and Lex stayed behind to play the role of me putting my brothers in grave danger. I was taken to their base and I tried to answer their questions but I didn't know the answer to them. They cut me until I felt like I was going to pass out. So I ran out and-" I was cut off by Cassie.

"Wait, they cut you? Show me. Are you okay?" She asked. I showed her my bloody bandaged arm. She was in shock and didn't say anything so I kept on going with what had happened.

"I ran out of there and they are probably looking for me now. I got a ride with an old man and he took me back to my house when I realized I couldn't go in because Lex was there. So I tried to think of ideas to get her out before she hurts any of my brothers. But the only thing I could think of was to kill her. I went inside, grabbed a gun and shot her. I didn't want to do it, Cas, I really didn't. I just don't know what to do now and if the police-" I was cut off by Cassie getting out of her seat and hugging me. I was shocked at first but then I accepted it. It felt good knowing that she will always have my back. I felt another tear roll down my face.

"Hey it's gonna be okay. You can live with me for a bit. But first we got to figure something out on what to do with that gun." She comforted.

"I know. I'm sorry." I apologize.

"You don't have to apologize for anything.you didn't have a choice." Cassie said, a bit firmly. I sobbed into her shoulder until she turned out back to the wheel and started to drive to her house. I start bouncing my leg up and down as the scene of Lexs lifeless body plays in my head on repeat. Why did I do this?