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Evergreen. A true personal story.. tw!: fast danger driving,

tw!: fast danger driving, 

this a true personal story, wittien exsaclty how i talk so its like im having a conversation with you or reliving the encounter

Sat in the drivers seat. car not moving looking around slowly completely out of it the only thing my eyes will focus on is a tree its a pretty tree, an evergreen, green and alive all year, through all the seasons.

why am i sat in a car staring at a tree you may ask? well let me exsplain...

i was at college sat next to my friend liv, when she brought up somone i hadnt thought of for a few months my ex, jorja. 

one thing you must know about her is we had a short "relationship" we were mostly long distance accept seeing eachother at college 3 times a week, we were really good friends before we got together, i still believe there were no romantic feelings just friendship but anyway. we got together we never actaully did anything remotally "relationshipy" we hugged maybe once or twice which for two 17 year olds is not alot at all. anyway after maybe a month at most we broke up per my descision. that was that . stopped talking hadnt talked since for probaly  6-7 months.

anyway, liv showed me screenshots of tik toks and insta accounts both ither owned by jorja or this other girl we will call her amelia, they consisted of tik tok videos and insta posts showing jorja and amelia being veryverrrryy obviously in a relationship however the dates show they had been dating nearly 2 years some of these posts relaid over the dates me and jorja were together. 

she cheated? 

she used me to cheat?

i thanked liv for showing me, and i left to go find jorja at college and then confronted her she denied it all even with me showing dates and proof. she denied it all. she said i was being a crazy ex. 

why do i care that she cheated? were not together. we barely were together. im in a happy relationship now anyway. why should i care?

i walked out of college and to my car once inside i started breaking down i called my boyfriend Zach. i exspalined everything and said i needed to see him. he simply replied why do i care its an ex it doesnt matter now. probelem is hes right but so wrong. he then told me we couldnt meet because he was meeting his friend Sophie...

fuck. seriously? everything took control at that point. i needed an escape.

i hung up the phone.

now here i am. sat in the drivers seat. car not moving looking around slowly completely out of it the only thing my eyes will focus on is a tree its a pretty tree, an evergreen, green and alive all year, through all the seasons.

fuck this is the only thought rining through my mind.

turning on the car i start leaving college once  at the quiet country road i turn on my playlist

"now playing; lovely bastards by ZWE1HVNDXR and yatashigang"

the song balsting though my car speakers and my speed increases. 

30

40

50

60

fuck that bend, managing to slow enough to just about make it round the bend and not crash i continue my drive into the 30mph area, staying at a nice steady 40 not bad for a silent road in a 30mph

now playing "cross my heart by artemas"

reaching the slip road for the motorway speeding up reving the crap out of my car to accelerate fast enough.

once ive joined im going 50mph increasing to the speed limmit 70mph.

i dont want get caught by police. so i stay averaging at 75-80mph

once home i go to bed. 

waking up at around 2;30 am time for my drive.

i leave the house as quietly as possible, sneaking down to my car and driving out of my road onto the main road 30mph staying at around 45mph i decide safest option police wise is to go down the country/back roads they are typically empty at this time.

country roads are nationals meaning the limit is technically 60pmh but most poeple stick to 20-40mph as thats the safest speeds for the tight roads.

now playing "new magic wand by tyler, the creator"

i stay to 40-60mph 

everything is fine music loud, windows open.

then i see the eyes.

glowing in the headlights.

a deer. 

FUCK i aint hitting no deer

hoping to be able to swerve this deer when im going 56mph was veryyy optomistic 

yeh that didnt end well.

tires screetching as the car looses control, 

then hitting something,

 i pass out.

waking up i dont know how much later.

my ears rining

eyes blured...

im awear of where i am,

i am,

 Sat in the drivers seat.

 car not moving.

 looking around slowly completely out of it the only thing my eyes will focus on is..

 a tree its a pretty tree, an evergreen, green and alive all year, through all the seasons.