Unrequited Love. ☆ PURINZ

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- Chaewon POV.

She said my name, my heard thumped loudly that she could even hear it, i shook my head to get the fuzzy feeling off of my chest, i didn't want to hurt mysslf again i just couldn't. I instead raised my hand mid-way to shake her hand. She took my hand and our hands intertwined with eachother, a flutter and a jolt of shock sent down my spine, we shook hands and we both introduced ourselves with eachother.

-10 minutes.-

It's been 10 minutes since our class started, an awkward silence between me and Yunjin. It crept up in my nerves of wanting to break the silence between us both but i couldn't cause my voice was very high pitched and loud that the whole class would hear my voice if i ever spoke once, i couldn't pay attention to any of the lectures all my attention and my mind was filled by her, i couldn't get her out of my head i felt like i had adhd at the moment but i quickly shook it off as our advisor called my name to answer something that was written on the board. My first class was my hated subject, : MATH. Gosh i hated being in this class, i then shook my thoughts off and stood up taking a gulp cause i was nervous since i didn't pay attention to any of the lectures our advisor said. I took the chalk on my advisor's desk and stared at the board for a good 5 minutes before trying to answer, the question was a math equation. I looked at my advisor quickly before taking my focus on the board again, trying to answer and when i tried, i was wrong. I was embarrassed. I pinched myself under my skirt as i walked back to my chair that was beside Yunjin, as i sat back on my seat i hit my head with my palm, trying to regain my focus, forgetting that Yunjin was right beside me. I suddenly felt a sudden poke on my shoulder and noticed that it was Yunjin poking me, i hummed in confusion whyshe poked me. She then spoke in a whisper, saying :

"Don't hit yourself, and it's okay if you're wrong, atleast you tried. Yeah?"

Her words, the most comforting thing i could ever hear on this day. I found myself smiling at her words that she muttered, i replied back with a simple "Thank you." Trying to control my emotions as i tried to focus back on the lectures that our advisor was teaching, but as much as i wanted to focus, there it goes again. Her face stuck in my mind, there i went again, daydreaming.

-15 minutes.-

'Gosh, when was this class going to end--' my silent mutter cut by the bell suddenly ringing, our advisor finally said goodbye and we all started to pack up our things and started to head out to our next class, but as i was packing up my stuff, She called out my name.

"Yah! Chaewon! What's your next class?"
She yelled.

She yelled from the exit door of the classroom as i turned my head to look for her from where she was yelling, as i finally found her, i finished up packing my things and put my backpack on and started heading towards her, replying back to her.

"My next class is chemistry, why? What about you?"

I acknowledged, tilting my head to the side slightly as i awaited for her response.

"We're in the same class again." She laughed.

She put her arms around my shoulder, i started to panic but i managed to be calm, but my insides were screaming internally, i wanted to shriek but that would be too embarrassing...

My gay ass couldn't handle this, but i acted like i was fine as we both walked to our next class, god i hoped we would still be beside eachother and would be paired with eachother in chemistry.

-8 minutes.-

We arrived at our chemistry class, she lets her arm go off my shoulder i got disappointed but i still acted like i was all good, we both entered the classroom/lab and i started to look for my seat since i didn't have one, cause remember? I'm a transferree. As i roamed around the class trying to find a seat, i found one that was across from you. I was sure that the seat wasn't taken cause everyone was literally ignoring it, i took my seat there and placed my bag on the floor since the desk was filled with lab stuff. Our chemistry teacher finally arrived and started our lesson. My focus was definitely not gonna go to the lecture, i knew i was gonna be distracted and took quick glances at her. Yunjin was really captivating, and the way we were just across from eachother, my heart thumped again as i admired her appearance, gosh i was gay for this. I didn't even know that i was full-on staring at her, i was surprised thatshe didn't even noticed that i was literally watching and just staring at her for the past few minutes now.

-10 minutes.-

This class, most boring/est of them all, i wanted the bell to ring so break time would start, im actually surprised that i finally focused once and for all, not thinking of Her even once, well that's an achievement, right?

... Oh man, thinking of that made me think of her now. I hate myself so much.

(SORRY IF THIS WAS A SHORT CHAPT IM REALLY LAZY😓)