To fight or to die, what will Neung do?

"The doctor's said that I'm not allowed to be in the room, while Neung is fighting for her life in a critical condition."

"Chet, told me that everything is my fault and that I am the reason that Neung is in this situation. As my thoughts wander, I can't help but agree with him."

"Aneung lost so much blood, God she lost so much blood. How is she going to fight! What if she dies? No, no, no. She needs to stay alive, she can't go. She promised to never leave my side, she won't break her promise."

"Aneung is nothing but consistent, she has always followed through on her word. Unlike me, who is too weak to fight for our love. At the slightest discomfort, my first instinct is to push her away, afraid to hurt her future by being in it, while hers is to always pull my hand towards her and hold it closer to her heart."

Khun Neung is seated in the waiting room, forgoing the chairs and opting to sit on the ground so she can be closer to the operating room, so she can run and get to Aneung's room faster the moment Plengfa appears and tells her that Aneung is alright, like she promised she would, in order to get Khun Neung away from the operating room and into the waiting room.

Khun Neung isn't someone who regularly goes to the temple. She doesn't pray in the morning and she doesn't pray at night. But at this moment of time, she has her hands folded, praying to the highest version of the highest power to ever exist to help her Aneung. She needs the divine to help her this one time, and she'll never ask for anything ever again. She became like the people she looked down upon, who only turn to God when they're in dire need of help. She just hopes that God takes mercy on her soul.

She's never felt more helpless, she's never felt more scared. To love is to be weak.

No, if Aneung were here with her she would say to her that that's not true. Aneung is the bright light that fills a beautiful dark space. She's reason someone needs in order to always have hope. When Neung sees something as a problem, Aneung looks past that and is focused on finding a solution.

Khun Neung closes her eyes and remembers the time Aneung and her pretended to be on the same bed whilst talking on the phone. If Aneung could hear her thoughts right now, she would tell Khun Neung to pretend that she was sitting right next to her on the floor. And Khun doesn't dare to displease her love, so she does just that.

Aneung is wearing a beautiful red Calvin Klein top and some nice jeans. She has white shoes on and her face is adorned with the most beautiful smile.

Khun Neung's mouth instantly turns upward in smile as well upon seeing Aneung in her favorite outfit. Aneung leans closer and whispers in her ear: "To love is not to be weak, it is to be vulnerable and allow yourself to feel, na kha?".

Aneung takes Neung's hand and places it on her heart. "I know you think that it might not easy to close yourself off to love and that you are strong for trying to do so, but it takes even stronger determination to love against all the odds."

Aneung is right. If we don't allow ourself to feel, we will always be left wondering. We will be plagued by the what if's. If I let her go then my life will forever be incomplete. So whatever the odds may be, I will face them all for Aneung.

"I promise to fight for you, if you promise to stay"

And with that Aneung gives her a small peck on the cheek, a huge smile, and suddenly disappears.

Khun Neung opens her eyes and can still feel the lingering touch of the figment of her imagination of her Aneung.

And maybe it was her prayer, maybe the Gods have decided to take mercy on her soul. Or maybe it was the strength of her little angel who promised to always fight by side. Most likely, it was both, because Khun Neung had never been happier to see her friend, Plengfa, running towards her and shouting

"Aneung, she - opened her eyes. She is alive!"
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