I'm a Gamer, and I hate/love this Game

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"....You're not like yourself"

This question scared me, I hate lying and I don't want to be hypocrite. I loved Shoyo and his family, they openly accepted me, their family dynamic is warm; which is completely different than mine.

<Backstory>

A small traditional Japanese house with a somewhat big garden full of flowers on the left side which faces the clear view of the mountains. On the right side is where the veggies are planted along the stone-textile pathway. I could remember how homey my Grandma's house were, I liked it. I saw my Grandmother replanting the tomatoes from the small pot to the ground, "Nana?"
"Hm" she responded while still focusing on replanting a few more tomatoes.
"Why don't you yell at me Nana?"
Shocked by my question–she placed down the pot and shuffled to a position where it is comfortable for her to face me– "Why would I yell at you, hmm?"
"Isn't that how a family, bond?" She gasped by my remarks, "We hang out rarely since dad always goes home early in the morning while mom is still asleep, and mom always goes to work at noon when dad is sleeping. When they happen to catch each other's presence they start yelling at each other" I continued.
 

Back then I could not remember what my Grandma replied but the only memory I had from that interaction we had 12 years ago—approximately when I was 4 years old, is that she sobbed and asked for forgiveness. At that time, such actions made me confused. I initially thought that, that was what considered as a 'normal' family dynamic.

Althroughout my childhood I never experienced warmth and what they called 'parental love'. They could not care less whether I've gone to school or not, whether I ate or not, whether I was dying because of fever. They don't give a damn about me. I considered them as an NPC in my life as they did not really contributed in my life, not even an ounce.
 

I was scared that when I try to pretend like Hinata,  I would not be able to convince them since I never really received warmth from my mother, my childhood along with my parents is as cold as ice.

But

I also don't want to take away my chance to pretend and act just like Shoyo, since I am scared that I might be the cause that will ruin their family. If I say the truth, It is not guaranteed that they will take me seriously or take it nicely. I just have to act like Shoyo and nothing will ever ruin their family and Shoyo's life.

I'll just try my very best and just assume this is a game!
 

A/N:
Quite a long chapter!👏🎉
Hope that anyone who reads this book is enjoying😁