I sat in my room wondering why I couldn't just be happy; I had everything that I had ever wanted. I had an amazing job and, as of just recently, an amazing life despite what I've been through. The tears started to fall, but I kept quiet so as not to wake anyone.
"Alex?" Bucky's voice sounded from the other side of the door.
"Come in," I whispered, not trusting my voice to be any louder.
"Alex, why are you crying?" Bucky asked, coming to sit beside me on the bed.
"Because I feel like I'm all the horrible things I've been through," my voice shook as a sob tore through my body.
"Alex, you're not the things that happened to you. You are so much more than that," Bucky said, putting his arms around me.
"Thanks, Bucky, it's nice to hear it even though I know it's not true," I smiled at him, eyes still blurry with tears.
"It is true, Alex. I meant every word that I said. Let me show you that I mean it," Bucky said, taking a couple of steps toward me. My heart rate began to pick up, and I had butterflies in my stomach.
"Okay," I whispered, surrendering control of the situation to Bucky.
Bucky closed the remaining distance between us and kissed me like I had never been kissed before. I had never felt more alive or more free. When he pulled back, I saw the lust wild in his eyes, and I couldn't help the moan that came from me. Bucky's eyes darkened at the sound of my moan.
"Are you sure you want this?" Bucky his.
"Yes," I half spoke half moaned.
Bucky dove back in my hands, roaming my body. The chill of his metal hand left goosebumps in its wake. Ceasing the movement of his hands for a moment, he pulled my shirt over my head, revealing my breasts as if I wasn't wearing a bra. Feeling the cold air on my skin that was once covered intensified everything I was feeling. My hands went to his chest, begging silently for him to remove his shirt as well. He grinned, pulling back and removing his shirt.
"So beautiful," Bucky said, eyes trailing over my body. His hands went back to work, this time grabbing my breasts in his hands. I was already so turned on just by simple touches; Bucky no doubt noticed this but kept continuing at his slow pace. My body was alight with every sensation I was feeling. Before long, our clothing had all been removed, and we lay touching each other in the most erotic way we could.
Bucky's flesh hand slid down my body and was inching towards my dripping core; when it finally reached its destination, I moaned. He started rubbing my clit at a steady pace, and my moans increased in volume and frequency. Bucky seemed pleased with the noises he was able to draw from me.
"Are you ready?" Bucky whispered in my ear.
"Yes," I whispered.
Bucky switched position, so he was hovering over me, lining himself up with my entrance. We both moaned at the pleasure. When he bottomed out inside me, he stilled for a moment, letting me adjust to his size.
"Move, Please," I begged after a couple of seconds.
Bucky didn't have to be told twice; he started moving in and out at a steady pace. Our Moans grew louder as the air around us grew hotter. I knew that neither of us would last much longer, given how turned-on we both were. I could feel myself getting closer by the second.
"I'm so close," I panted out as Bucky continued thrusting in and out at a rapid rate.
"Me too," Bucky said, and as if in a silent queue, we both came together. The only sound remaining in the room was our heavy breathing.
"That was wow," I breathed.
"What happens now?" Bucky asked, addressing the elephant in the room.
"I don't know, Buck, I just know that I don't think I could go back to the way things were before because I know for sure now that I am in love with you," I said, feeling the full weight of what I said and what it means.
"I love you too, Alex," Bucky said, smiling as he pulled me in for a kiss.
"Now we had better get dressed before someone walks in on us," I barely finished my sentence when the door opened, revealing a rather surprised Steve Rogers.
"Sorry," Steve said, quickly backing out and closing the door. I let out a laugh while Bucky was still sitting there, horrified.
"I told you that would happen," I smiled, standing up and redressing myself before anyone else had the chance to walk in.
"Buck, you might want to hurry up and get dressed before someone other than Steve opens that door," I said, jarring him from his stupor.
"How are you not freaking out about being walked in on like that?" Bucky asked as he began putting his clothes on.
"Simple, I just really don't give a shit; in my opinion, that is why you knock before opening the door to someone's room," I said with a shrug.
When we entered the living area, Steve was still sitting, looking embarrassed, as Bucky had. I laughed again, and both childishly pouted at me. The rest of the team looked confused, and I laughed some more.
"What's wrong with those two?" Nat asked.
"They're just both a little embarrassed," I replied, sitting next to Nat.
"Why?"
"Steve walked in on Bucky and me after we had sex just a little bit ago," I replied, watching the two super soldiers blush like schoolgirls.
"Why aren't you embarrassed as well?" Nat asked.
"Because we all come into this world naked and screaming, so I don't really see a reason to be embarrassed because someone saw me naked," I replied, walking off to the kitchen to get a bottle of water while everyone was still laughing at Steve and Bucky. I sighed to myself, waiting for it to dawn on everyone that I just admitted to having sex with Bucky. That's when I heard the shocked gasps, and everyone was questioning Bucky. I smiled and shook my head, returning to the room to save Bucky from too much more embarrassment.
