Shattered Hearts

Chapter Nine: Avyanna

Love me or hate me, both are in my favor. If you love me, I'll always be in your heart. If you hate me, I'll always be in your mind.

-Shakespeare

Avyanna POV:
Ring.

Who could be texting me at this late hour?

Unless....

It could be him. I mean what are the possibilities? He was supposed to be in jail. He didn't come back? No, no, no.

I calm myself. I am just overreacting. He can't come back.

What was I doing before I caused another panic attack? Oh right, looking for my phone.

Goodbye, sleep. We will probably never meet again. It seems as though fate dislikes you and me together. I will see you on the other side.

I get out of my bed and trip. Ow. I look down and see that I tripped on my phone.

How did my phone get on the floor?

The person who is texting me can wait. I need a couple of minutes to pull myself together.

1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10. Not enough time. I just have to suck it up.
I pick up my phone and see a text from Grey.

Not surprising. I would prefer that he texted me then... I can't even say his name. I'm a mess.

Grey: Hi Avyanna. I am so incredibly sorry for what happened. I don't like whoever that girl was. I like you. You don't have to feel the same but just talk to me. We can just stay friends if that's what you want. I will never force anything on you. I just want to hear your voice again. Or see that gorgeous smile. Ttyl.

He doesn't know who Bianca is. Maybe that kiss was an accident. Whether it or not it was it shouldn't have mattered to me because we were nothing. He can kiss whoever he wants.

Me: How long is this going to last?

Grey: You answered?

Me: Well obviously.

Grey: I am so incredibly sorry Avyanna.

Me: Stop apologizing. We never talked. Tell me what happened from start to finish.

I didn't like the way this was going even though I initiated it. I needed answers. No matter how many times I try to convince myself not to.

Gray: OK. Be prepared for a long text.

Grey: I was sitting in class counting down the minutes until I could talk to you again. you were all I could think about. Sam texted me about the video. I was furious and happy at the same time. And as you know I texted you. Then we confessed. Which felt amazing. That's when time started to go slower than ever. When the bell rang I practically raced to the door. I was making my way out when I bumped into someone. I tried to get past but she started talking. As I said before, I am a gentleman. I couldn't just leave. She says my name. How did she know my name? We'll never know. I greeted her and tried to get past. She then pushes me back. Who knew she was so strong? She then said she saw the video of us. Said something about you that I would rather not repeat. Then she asked me to date her. Date her! She must be delusional. I politely declined when she pushed me back again. She rants about you saying I should choose her. She threw a tantrum! Crying and screaming. I tried to calm her down because she was just embarrassing herself. I hug her to make her feel better. She used that opportunity to kiss me. When I tell you she tasted like plastic. Then you saw. That's the shortened version of it.

I don't know how to feel after reading that. It sounds like something Bianca would do.

He said he doesn't like her, and he still likes me. We just met.

Everything could go wrong with this. Grey wouldn't be safe from .....

I wouldn't be able to do that to Grey. Knowing that his blood is on my hands. I couldn't let him get attached to me.

But .... Is still in jail. Grey couldn't be hurt.

That doesn't make me any less the person I am.

Ugly.

Useless

Weak

I will always be that. Once Grey realizes he will run for the hills.

I was lost in a daze when I heard a ring.

Grey: Are you still there?

I didn't even realize how much time went by.

Me: I'm still here.

Grey: What do you want?

Me:...

Me: I don't know.

Grey: What are you hiding from?

Me: what do you mean?

Grey: I have a feeling that you knew that kiss wasn't real.

He's not wrong. Some part inside of me knew that it wasn't.

Grey: You used it as an escape from me. You're either running from something or don't like me. My vote is on the former.

How? He read me like a book. Am I that see through?

Grey: You don't have to tell me now.

Avyanna: thanks. Let's move on to a lighter topic.

Grey: ok

Avyanna: where do you want to travel?

Grey: wherever you want to go. Your happiness is the main priority.

Avyanna: We just met.

Grey: so? I like you.

That's how our conversation went on all night. I would ask him a question and he would answer in the cheesiest way ever.

We were texting until 6 am. I'll have to get coffee on my way to school. Neither of us got any sleep, and that's ok.

I wouldn't prefer it any other way.

Thoughts?