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This is how I've been feeling these past days. (You dont have to listen if you dont want to)
Ok so starting off, I was a goody-2-kid. Listening to everything, not complaining, adjusting to anything anyone said without caring on if it hurts me. Kinda like a slave.
So now, that Im more mature. I say no to things that make me uncomfortable. For example, I like keeping my hair open but my family pressures on keeping them braided. Also, I got anger issues too so I kept snapping at everyone.
So because of this, my family keeps telling me stuff like "You changed", "You arent my little girl.", "You get very angry.", "I wish I could meet the past you again.". And trust me? People would only gaslight me and make me do all their works.
My dad was very strict with everything that it was hard to not have secrets, and my cousins and sister used it to advantage because they know I am too afraid to let dad know.
I just feel so stuck with all these things, having no freedom in what I want. I cant even be what I want in the future (animator) because according to islam "you cant draw living creatures because they are a mock to allah (God)"
