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pehla ehsaas....

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Hm: ek cheez bole ????
Ks: hmmmm...
Hm: aapko pata hai aap bohot khush kismaat hai jo aapke pass ek itna achha pariwar hai sab aapki itni parwaha karte hai ... Sab ke saath aisa nhi hota Agar us din hum mandap mey gir ka mar bi jaate na toh kisi ko kuchh fark nhi padta.... Hamara koi nhi hai jo hamare is duniya se jaane ke baad hamare peeche hamey yaad karega ....
A tear left from her eyes .... She cleans it ....
Ks: aisa nhi bolte .... Hum hai na tumhare ... Or hamare hote hue yamraaj ko bhi chaar baar sochhna hoga tumhare pass aate waqt ....
Hm looks into her eyes ....
Ks cleans her tears ....
Hm hugs her tightly and starts crying....
Ks kisses her forehead....
Hm: hum...hamare saath sabne .....bura kyu kiya???
Ks remains silent....
Hm: apko pata hai us waqt ..hamey ..... Kitna....da..dard hua tha????
Ks cups her face and looks into her eyes and said....
Ks: hum samajh sakte hai....  Shant ho jao ...
Hm: aap bhi chali jaae gi ek din ...
Ks: hum kabhi nhi jaane waale ....
She carries her into her arms and said...
Ks: tumhe aab Sona chahiye raat bohot ho gai hai  ....
Vo usko bedroom mey laati hai or neeche metress bhicha kar hm ko goudh mey lekar baith jaati hai .. hm closes her eyes.... Kuchh der mey vo so jaati hai ks bhi bed se tik kar so jaati hai ....

Raat ka samay tha hm ki neend khulti hai or vo ks ko bed se tik kar sote hue paati hai .... Vo uski goudh se uth kar baith hai or ks ko litaa ne ki koshish karne lagti hai ....
Jiske karan ks uske uper gir jaati hai .... Hm gasps .... And looks towards ks who was sleeping peacefully on her chest..... Hm usko apne side se theek se litaati hai .....
Uski nazar ks ke bhole chehre per jaati hai ... She smiles.... Hm in her mind kitna achha jeevan saathi diya hai bhagwan ne ... Hum toh inke layak bhi nhi Hai.... Kitne pyaar se ye hamey sunte hai Jab hum inko kuch batate hai toh .... Hum toh kabhi sochh bhi nhi sakte the ki koi hamare saath baith kar roega hamara dard samjhe ga....   inhone hamey toh hamey kabhi galat tarike se nhi  chua ...
Koi itna achha kaise ho sakta hai ??? Hamare peeche ab koi toh hai jo hamari parwah karta hai koi toh hai vo hamare liye hamare is duniya se jaane ke baad hamey yaad karega   .... She puts her head on ks's chest and felt ks's hand crassing her back .... Hm ki aakhon se aasun nikalne lagte hai ye sochh kar ki bhagwan ne uske liye koi toh achha diya ... Hm closes her eyes.... Tears was flowing from her eyes.... She cleans them and holds her through her collars tightly.... And kuchh der mey uski neend lag jaati hai .....

Ks was sitting on the bed reading a book ....
Hm comes and sits beside her ....
Ks looks towards her...
Hm: kya kar rahe hai aap ???
Ks: book read kar rahe hai.... Tumko karna hai ???
Hm bows down her head in embarrassment and said...
Hm: hamey padhna nhi aata .....
Ks: koi baat nhi bachha .... Hum padege tumhare liye ....
Hm: hum bilkul aapke layak nhi hai ..... Na pade likhe hai na hamey bade logo jaise rakhna aata hai na hamey angrezi aati hai .... Aapko sharam aati hogi na ???
Ks: nhi hamey sharm nhi aati ....  Ye faltu ki baaton per dhyaan mat do .... Or kya farak padta hai na ki tume angrezi aati hai yaa nhi .... Hum Hindi mey bhi toh baat kar sakte hai .....
Hm: aap bohot achhi hai ... Aapko pata hai humey bachpan mey padai karna bohot pasand na per ammi abbu ke jaane ke baad kisine hamey aage padhaya hi nhi ....
Ks remains silent....
Hm apne asoon saf karte hue bolti hai ....
Hm: chai piye gi ????
Ks: tumko aata hai banana ???
Hm: ha hamey sab pakana aata hai ....
Ks: bilkul hum piye ge apni biwi ke haath ki chai ....
Hm smile and said...
Hm: hum chai bana kar laate hai ...
Vo kitchen mey chali jaati hai ....
Vo chai banakar laati hai or table per rakh deti hai .... Vo apni chai ka cup lekar niche zameen per baith jaati hai ks also sits beside her...
Hm: aap kyu neeche baith jaate hai hamare saath ???
Ks: kahe ??? Hamari biwi humse neeche baithengi hamey achha lagega ???
Hm remains silent.... Ks tooks a sip and said with a smile...
Ks: tastey hai ...
Hm smiles....
Ks was adoring her beautiful wife...
Ks: aise hi hasa karo .... Bohot sundar lagti ho huste waqt....
Hm lowers her Grace blushing....
Ks drinks her tea or vo uski goudh mey sar rakh kar late jaati hai .....
Hm crasses her hair and said....
Hm: Doraemon....
Ks: hmmmm....
Hm: aapne kabhi kisi se pyaar kiya ....
Ks looks into her eyes and said....
Ks: chhodo purani baatein ab hamari shaadi ho chuki hai ....
Hm: apse toh kisiko bhi pyaar ho jae ...
Ks uth kar baithti hai or uske pass Ate hue bolti hai ...
Ks: tumko hua ????
Hm felt butterflies rushing in her stomach....
It was first time when she was feeling it .... She tries to say something....
Hm: v...vo....hum...
Ks laughs and said....
Ks: itna darne ki zarurat nhi hai mazaak kar rahe the bachha ....
Hm: ek cheez puchhe ????
Ks: hmmm....
Hm: apka Dil nhi karta hamey chune ka ???? Hamara matlab hamare kareeb aane ka ???
Aap chahti toh hamare saath kuchh bhi kar sakti thi per aapne kyu kuchh nhi kiya???
Ks: kyuki hum insaan hai haseena... Jaanwar nhi .... Or tum patni ho hamari..... Puri zindagi hamey saath mey bitana hai hamey ....
Ks was looking towards her carrying love and affection in her eyes ....
Hm again felt something strange rushing in her stomach....
Hm innocently said...
Hm: aise mat dekhiye hamey ....
Ks: kahe ???
Hm: pate mey gudh gudi ho rahi hai hamare ...
Ks chuckles and kissed her forehead....
Hm puts her head on ks's chest....
Hm: kash vo log bhi insaan hote ....
Ks crasses her waist....
Hm: aapko apne piwaar ke pass wapis Jana chahiye....
Ks: or tumhara ka ????
Hm: hume aap wapis wahi chhod aiye jaha se lai thi ....
Ks: tum pagal ho ???? Shaadi ki hai tumse humne hamara dharm hai tumhari raksha karna  or tum bol rahi ho ki hum tumhe wahi chhod aae us nark mey ????
Hm: aap apni zindagi kyu barbad kar rahe hai .... Kyu nhi samajh rahe hai ki hum dushti hai hamey pehle hi kisi or ne chhu liya hai ....
Ks: hum koi apni zindagi barbad nhi kar rahe hai .... Hum khush hai tumhare saath .... Or tum kaise dushit ho gai ???  Tumne koun sa kisi ke saath bura kiya hai.... Tum bilkul pawitra ho ....
Hm looks into her eyes.... Ks cups her face and traces her cheek and leans towards her.... Hm was feeling butterflies rushing inside her stomach.... Vo samajh nhi paa rahi thi ki ye uske saath kyu ho raha hai or kya ho raha hai lekin ye jo bhi tha uske liye ye bohot khas tha..... Ek aisa ehsaas jismey uska man kewal usse se jine ko bol raha tha ..... Ks puts her lip on hm's lip .... Hm ki saanse ek dam se tham jaati hai .... Vo us lamhe ko mehsoos karna  chahti thi .... She holds her shoulder with a hesitation.... And closes her eyes lekin fir usko wahi log dekhne lagte hai usko wahi raat yaad aane lagti hai .... She pushed her... Or vo apni aakhe kholti hai ...
Ks ka sar peeche rakhi table se takra jaata hai .... She hissed .... Hm realises that she had done.... Vo turant bolti hai ....
Hm: hamey maaf kar dijiye..... V...vo hum ....
Vo inta bol hi pai thi ki ks bolti hai....
Ks: koi baat nhi bachha hum samajh sakte hai ..... Sorry .....
She was embarred by her action Vo itna bol kar  uth ti hai or room ke bahar chali jaati hai....
Hm ko lagta hai ki ks usse naraz ho gai hai... Tear escapes from her eyes.... Vo apne pairon ko samte hue wahi baith jaati hai.... Hm in her mind.... " Kya kuch nhi kiya  unhone hamare liye per hum unhe itni si cheez nhi de sakte.... Sayad aab vo humse kabhi baat nhi karengi "
Vo apna sar ghutno per rakh kar rone lagti hai ....

Pura din beet jaata hai ks or hm ke beech mushkil hi hai ki kuchh baat Hui hogi jo hm ko man hi man khaa raha tha .... hm was in the room when ks enters inside .... Hm sofe per baithi hui thi ....
Hm uske ore mayusi bhare hue chehre ke saath dekhti hai .... Ks was not looking towards her which was killing her through her inside... Ks wordrobe se bedsheet nikal kar neeche bichati hai or jaise hi vo turn hoti hai waha vo hm ko khada hua paati hai.... Hm apni saree ka pallu kholti hai or neeche gira deti hai .... Vo uska haath pakad ti hai or apne kamar per rakh deti hai....
Hm: aapko jo karna hai kar lijiye per istarah humse naraz mat rahiye humse baat kyun nhi kar rahe aap ??? ....  sab aapka hai aap jo chahe vo kar sakte hai hum kuchh nhi bolenge per humse naraz mat rahiye.....
Vo rone lagti hai .....
Hm: ek aap hi hai jo humse baat karti hai .... Hum aapse darkhast karte hai .... Aap humse baat karna mat chhodiye....
Ks usko zoor se hug kar leti hai .....
Ks: shaant bachha ..... Hamey kuchh nhi chahiye....
Hm uski collars pakad kar apna sar uske chest per rakh kar rone lagti hai...
Ks kisses her forehead and cups her face and said....
Ks: hum tumse isliye baat nhi kar rahe the kyuki hamey sharam aa rahi thi apni harkat per vo humne ki thi ....  Hamey tumse kuchh nhi chahiye....
Vo uska Pallu uthati hai or uske kandhe per rakh deti hai ....
Hm hugs her tightly....
Ks kisses her forehead....
Ks: achha .... Rona bandh karo chalo tumko hum kahi le kar chale ....
Hm: kaha ???
Ks remains silent .... Vo usko carry karti hai or neeche aate hai when a servent comes ....
Vo unko dekh neeche dekhne lagta hai ....
Ks: hum bahar Jaa rahe hai .... Tum darwaza bandh karlo....
He nodes ....
Hm was looking towards her....
Vo bahar aati hai or car mey baith te hai or kahi nikal jaate hai.....