𝘕𝘰𝘵𝘦-𝘔𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘶𝘯𝘨 (𝘌𝘯𝘨𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘩 𝘝𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯)

𝟏-𝐅𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐍𝐨𝐭𝐞

"What do you think love is? Is it the arrhythmia that occurs in your pulse when you see him, or the feeling of that rhythm sound in your ears due to the rapid beating of your heart, or is it the feeling of being afraid to look into your eyes but at the same time wanting to get lost in your eyes?

..Oh my God, what am I saying? It's a very ambitious introduction for the first note isn't it? Actually, I don't like this kind of introductions at all, but it just happened,to tell the truth I don't even know what I should write, it wasn't quite what I imagined, to be honest when I thought of this idea. It seemed more attractive to me, but when I took the pen in my hand, everything turned into ice. Do you know that I am like this in normal life, just when a bright idea comes to my mind and I decide to implement it, poof, everything disappears.

Has this happened to you too? It happens to everyone though, isn't it a stupid question? Do you mind if you think I'm weird when you read these? I'm not even sure if I can give them to you, but...

You will probably say that since you are not even sure about giving it then why you are writing, actually I don't know but when I write each word, that feeling of excitement and adrenaline inside me decreases, sometimes I feel like I will lose my balance, as if I will never get up again, so writing is good for me, I can be myself while writing and that makes me feel good.

Oh, by the way, you probably thought it was weird when you read the words, right? I can swear you looked or said something like that while saying these.
Of course, there will be other notes, so I guess, don't you expect me to fit all my thoughts on a piece of paper right? While it seemed impossible for me to even write these sentences, my God, to tell you everything in short how I feel...
It's like a dream, but it's a dream that I expect to come true. It may be difficult, but it will have a happy ending.