Embracing the Unknown

out and about.

I got out of the shower, blow drying my hair, it was already 6 pm Did I take that long in the shower?

I picked out my clothes, that stupid long skirt I wear all the time, a purple shirt with Frankenstein's wife plastered on the front, a chained moon belt that'll go right over my black skirt, some purple stockings for a change, and some black boots aka my doc martens. with all that I threw the clothes on, I put purple butterfly clips in my hair, I loved putting clips in my hair. my mouth tasted like my usual morning breath because of my long ass nap so I brushed it again, that's when it hit me I hadn't eaten anything today, and I wasn't going to eat anyway because I somehow wasn't hungry. I put on some black eyeliner and smudged it, I hated doing eyeliner tails because it just didn't look right on me and also it always came out looking wonky, I could never quite a clasp on how to do good makeup. By the time I was done with all that, it was 7 pm, which meant I still had enough time to read. I went over to my bed, grabbed my book off my nightstand, and opened it, already getting submersed into the universe of fiction, whenever I read I felt at peace, reading was like my safe space, it just had to be the right book or else id be bored out of my mind. I read like a few chapters til I heard a knock on my door, i looked at my clock, 9:20 pm i read off my clock, I was a pretty slow reader, and I liked to soak in the words. whenever I found a new word I liked I used it in like almost every sentence. I'm always getting distracted from the world.

"come in" I hollered, reaching for the 20 bucks in my jewelry box and putting it in my small black leather purse.

"you ready to go? you look amazing sweetheart" My mom walked in the door wide open.

I rolled my eyes, I surely couldn't have looked that good.

"yeah Mom let's go" I smiled, letting my excitement take over, completely.

I got up and practically ran downstairs, I remembered the concert didn't really start till 10 pm, i kinda frowned but i ran out the house before my mom even came down the stairs, my moms car unlocked. i sat in the passenger seat, excited to go to a a concert, i had never been to a concert! My mom soon enough got to the car. as she started the car and pulled out of the driveway she flashed a smirk at me. i smiled, blushing out of the thought of that majestical guy

"so you really dont know his name?" my mom kept that cheeky grin plastered all over her face.

"i really dont know ma" i sighed

"Have a good time okay? get in line before all these other girls get in front and steal him" my mom teased as she pulled up in front of the small concert hall

"thank you mom, love you" i said as i got out the car, closing the car door behind me

i stood in line, well not a line yet but i was the only person there, at the moment. i didnt bring no books or anything to keep me entertained, what a bummer. i just got deep in thoughts, every once in a while, lustful thoughts attacking my brain. i was so deep in thoughts i didnt notice the line of teenage girls piling up behind me. it wasn't until some girl nudged me is when i realized the doors were open, some guy asked for money for a ticket and and i gave him the 20 bucks rushing into the stadium into the front row, so nobody would get there before me. i probably stood there for at least 10 minutes before some red lights turned on, pointing at the stage. i saw as that pretty guy i once saw earlier came on stage, as well as a few other band members, he started out by saying thank you for coming to their show tonight and how he hopes we enjoy the experience and then i heard this piano melody that sounded almost nostalgic in some sort of way even though i had never even heard it, next thing i heard was a whisper into the mic

"baby join me in death" he sang about two times before the beat dropped and the guitar and all the other instruments dropped in.

i was amazed at the song it was about love of course but as the lyrics kept going i was enjoying it. why hadn't i heard of this band? were they not famous or was i just a loner who spent her time cooped up in her room reading? second choice for sure. i started waving my hand in the air like everyone else. i didnt know how long this thing would be would it be past my curfew? i didnt even know if i had a curfew because i never went out of the house unless i was taking a walk or just to the grocery store. this was really the first time i've gone out to a place where people enjoy their time. by the time the concert was done i didnt even know, the girls leaving surprisingly fast, i just stood there, amazed by his singing voice or the music in general. i stood there for a while until some guy who worked there told me that i was on the backstage list, the only one actually.

"really?" i asked confused

"yeah its to your right." the guy who works at this place said, obviously not wanting to be there at the moment.

i nodded slowly and walked to my right, a door in plain sight. i turned the knob and was greeted with a couch and a few of the band members i saw on stage, the one standing out to me being that pretty boy with those green eyes. i didnt know if i was dreaming or if he just told his band members to give us alone time. the band members teased a bit before leaving. i just stood there dumbfounded.

"we didnt really get a proper chance to talk, what's your name? sit if you want." that deep silky voice chimed in as it got awkwardly quiet, also smoking a cigarette.

"uhhh my name is cordelia.. yours?" i uttered, obviously nervous to be in his presence, i sat down next to him on the small couch, his long arm already wrapping right around my shoulder. i got a whiff of him, he reeked of cologne, vodka, and cigarettes, geez he must smoke a lot because on stage as soon as one finished he lit another one.

"ville hermanni valo" he replied, a bit of an accent to his name, i knew he was european i just couldn't quite catch where specifically.

"so you put me on the backstage list?" i nodded slowly, taking note that he was drunk but not like stumbling drunk. that stupid nodding slowly thing of mine was something i picked up when i was younger and at this point i did it all the time.

"i mean yeah whyyyy not? your cute" he said taking a slow puff and blowing it right into my hair as he turned his head and looked into my eyes, he pushed my hair behind my ears.

i had watched too many romance movies that what he did sent off a signal that repeated in my brain:

"pucker your lips and close your eyes im gonna kiss you"

of course it sent off that signal.

i closed my eyes, i swear i felt his lips come towards mine.

(word count is 1319 , little cliffhanger for y'all, if anyone's reading anyway, hope your liking the story so far :3!!!)