Drifting Memories (Aomine Daiki one shot)

Say 'I Love You' Before It's Too Late

I really love the song sweater weather by the neighbourhood but because of youtubes copyright stuff I've got the cover of the song instead. I actually like the cover of the song more and I really think you should listen to it as you read. It's worth it I promise.

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I stared out the hospital window, Daiki would be playing his game right now. I wish I could go to see it. A steady beating of rain hit the window as I stared out to the darkening clouds. My condition had been getting worse, the tumour in my brain was growing and very slowly I was losing my memories.

My life was fading away more and more each day but the only thing that remained was Daiki. All the times we spent together before I got sick were the only memories that didn't abandon me.

"I love the beach!" We had just gotten of the train that we took here and I stared at the endless sandy shore. Daiki had his hand entwined with mine as I jumped about, he simply smiled at my childish excitement.

I charged towards the beach dragging him along with me. I hadn't been there in so long and the salty breeze felt so familiar. Daiki let go of my hand as I stepped into the water. The soft sand under my feet tingled as a wave of water went over them once more.

I turned around and waved him over but he shook his head. I pouted with pleading eyes and he finally sighed and gave in. He stepped into the water, his face a contortion of disgust and annoyance which made me giggle.

"What are you laughing- ouch!" A crab pinched his toe and he jumped making me laugh even harder as he ran to the shore.

"Daiki." I called out to where he was sitting safely away from the water.

"What?" He asked probably still annoyed by how I had laughed at him.

"I love you."

A small smile tugged at his lips as his deep blue eyes stared into mine. "The same to you."

He never said those three words back but I knew he loved me too. I knew that when he visited me everyday it was because he loved me and when he would kiss me before he left it was because he loved me. That memory was the one that I held dearest because it was the first time that he admitted it. I didn't want to lose it.

My mind grew fuzzy like it had been doing these past few days and I forgot what I was thinking about. I probably had another precious memory stolen but for some reason this felt different. Like something so incredibly important had left.

"Eiko!" I turned my head to look at the stranger who had come into my room. His blue hair was drenched from the rain but his sea blue eyes glowed with warmth.

"Who are you?"

The warmth in his eyes disappeared and was replaced with sadness. he pulled up a seat next to me and I watched him curiously.

"It's me, Daiki."

"I'm sorry... I can't remember."

All I knew was that he was someone important. I didn't know who he was yet my heart was beating frantically and I had the urge to hug him.

"You don't remember me?" He asked and I shook my head. I searched his sad blue eyes for any recognition yet I found none.

"Do you remember anything?" There was some form of deep desperation, like trying to cling on to an imaginary rope to stop himself falling. I felt like I had to remember something, I had to make that rope real because I didn't want to see him fall.

Memories of the sea brushing over my feet was pushed into my mind. I was with someone but I wasn't sure who.

"I was at the beach." I whispered, a single tear running down my face even though I didn't know why. Why couldn't I remember him? It was something so simple yet I couldn't do it! He was falling, I could already see the hope draining from him and I was helpless to do anything about it. I was meant to protect him because I loved him... Even if I couldn't remember why, I still loved him.

My heart tightened and suddenly I couldn't breathe. It was like my life was finally being sucked away from me. The boy slipped his hand into mine and suddenly it hit me like a wave as our fingers intertwined. It was just like our day at the beach, he was holding my hand yet again but not to stop me running off, this time it was to send me off.

"I'm sorry Daiki, I almost forgot you." the corners of his lips turned up even though he was crying. I wasn't strong enough to wipe his tears away so instead I just stared at him longingly as I took my last breaths.

"I remembered our day at the beach and how you got pinched by that crab."

He laughed but it turned into a sob. Doctors rushed into the room and tried finding what was wrong but no one disturbed Daiki and I because they all knew as much as I did that my time had come.

They couldn't save me.

Dying wasn't as peaceful as I thought it was as my lungs forgot how to breath and my heart forgot how to beat. It was like I was drowning and so close to the surface but I just couldn't quite get above it to take a breath.

"I love you, Daiki." I said as I tried to calm down the panic and fear of death taking over me. I was crying now because I wasn't ready to say goodbye. I wanted to replace the memories I had lost with new ones of us. I wanted to see him smile as brightly as he used to. I wanted to hold his hand whilst we walked down the street. I wanted to feel his warmth in our hugs and the way his chin would rest so comfortably on my head. I wanted to hear him say 'I love you' because I never had.

I was scared of dying but more than that, I was scared of knowing I wouldn't see him again.

"I love you so much." I said as any signs of my body struggling against this disease stopped. His thumb swiftly wiped my tears away as he kissed me for one final time.

"I love you too." he said and I smiled as those four words sent me off. I didn't think I would get to hear them but I did. The warmth left my body and just like all those drifting memories...

I was gone.

My last memory was us at the beach and I realised how I had managed to keep that memory right to the end like I had hoped.

Maybe in another life we would go there together again...