the frustration of loving (Togaraka)

no flashfires

Lol, this is so brain rot 😭

I'm sorry I fr can't think like a normal person 😪

I tried my best

This chapter contains sensitive topics and spoilers, but who tf cares rlly?

This chapter has some heavily implied Dabihawks, so if you don’t want to read that, then... don't?

Third person:
Conpress sat in his cell, talking to the officers who were set to watch him.
"And that's why you don't eat chicken raw." He said.
The guards looked at each other.
"Um...."

Himiko's pov:
I sat on the floor of Ochaco's dorm with Shoto.
"Toya woke up yesterday..." Shoto said.
"Oh, I'm glad." Ochaco responded.
"That's good... I was beginning to think he wasn't going to." I mumbled tiredly.
"Himiko... he was asleep for what? A week?" Ochaco said.
"I dunno okay... I was just worried." I told her.

Shoto took his phone out of his pocket and went to his contacts.
"Who're you calling?" I asked.
Shoto didn't respond but went to a contact that was named: Fucking my brother 😒

I laughed out loud at that. Ochaco signalled at me to shush as shoto was calling someone.

Third person:
Toya was sitting on the hospital bed and playing with plasticine. So far, he had made his mother and a log surrounded by trees and a small lake.

"Is that Ms. Todoroki?" Hawks asked, gesturing to the figure with white hair.
"Yeah... the day she broke." Toya said, adding a kettle to the little things he had made.

"Oh... what's with the kettle?" Keigo added.
"She poured it on Shoto."
Despite Dabi's words still not being grammatically correct 50% of the time, Hawks knew what he meant most of the time.
Then Hawks got a call. The contact read: Shoto.

"Hey Shoto, wassup?" He greeted.
"How's Toya?" Shoto asked on the other end.

"Omg... is that your contact name for Hawks??" Himiko whisper yelled.
"He's doing great!" Hawks answered.
"Shoto's calling?" Toya asked.
"Yeah, d'you wanna talk?" Hawks asked him.
Toya shook his head and went back to creating things with the plasticine.

"OK, well, if he's going good, then that's good." Shoto said.
"There anything else you wanna know?" Hawks asked.
"Is it alright if I visit him tomorrow?" Shoto suggested.
"You'll have to run it past Nezu, but if Toya's ready, then of course." Hawks exclaimed.
"OK." Shoto said, then he hung up.

"... what's that ya making?" Hawks asked, putting his phone in his pocket.
"... hospital." Toya responded.
The scene he was making looked strange. There was a purple TV and stickers everywhere.
"That's a strange hospital..." Hawks added.
"It's gone now." Toya told him.
"Oh, how come?" Hawks asked.
"Me..." Toya said, adding a table and beds to the scene.
"They kept me there." Toya added now making a yellow man.

"Oh... why are you making sad things? I'm pretty sure the only happy thing is that pretty landscape." Hawks questioned.
"No. Sekoto peak." Toya muttered.
"Oh, that's where you burned, right?" Hawks asked him.
Toya nodded and added the yellow man to the hospital scene.

The hospital scene didn't look right to Hawks, it didn't look like a hospital. The room was out of place.
"Fire..." Toya mumbled.
"What was that?" Hawks asked, looking up.

"... is Mum alright?" Toya asked, looking at the plasticine figure he'd made of her.
"I don't know actually you'll have to ask someone else..." Hawks answered.
Toya looked at Hawks and smiled.
"I'm sure she's fine." He said.

Hawks had never actually seen Dabi smile genuinely, but he'd seen him smirk. Even so, he didn't know how to feel about this situation as a whole. It was strange.

Toya would change moods instantaneously the moment the mood of a conversation changed. It was clear that the house he grew up in was quite toxic, but was that where this came from, or was it from being with villains? Hawks didn't know the answer to that at the moment, but he wanted to find out as soon as he possibly could. Shoto was the first step.

"Hawks, do you ever wonder what your purpose is?" Toya asked.
Hawks snapped out of his overthinkitive state and looked at Toya.
"No, I don't make that choice. The commission does." He replied.
Toya nodded.

"I was born because of my father's selfish dream, but I was a failure to him. Then I was gonna be trained to be a vessel for all for one. I failed at that, too. I became a villain to destroy the society of heroes and ruin my father's reputation as one, but I failed at that too and now look at me. A broken soul sitting in a hospital bed playing with plasticine." Toya said.

Hawks looked into his eyes. If he had the normal life he probably desired he wouldn't have a reason to cry, and if his body worked the way it was meant to then he would be crying, but not even blood could come out of his eyes anymore.

According to Recovery Girl, he would cry blood, but she couldn't repair his eyes enough for him to cry again.

"I don't think you're a failure. You may have made a lot of mistakes in your life, but you still have people who care about you. I'm one of those people, Toya." Hawks started as he held Toya's hand gently. "You are an amazing person, evil or not. I am glad that I got a chance to know both sides." He continued holding Toya's face.
"I'm not... I, I ruin everything I go near I kill people I go near. I... I'm a bad person." He said, taking Hawks's hand from his face.
"If that's what you believe, I'll let you, but that doesn't mean I won't try to change that. You may have killed people, but that doesn't mean you can't atone." Hawks told him, holding his hand.

Aizawa's pov:
"He's a good kid." I said.
Nezu looked at me from the chair he was standing on.
"He's not even 10 years younger than you, Aizawa." He said irritatedly.
"Still, he's trying his best to help this guy." I exclaimed.
Nezu rolled his eyes at me and sat down.

Ochaco's pov:
I was glad that Dabi was awake and doing well because Himiko hadn't been the same ever since that battle at lunch. Todoroki hadn't either.

Himiko was hugging me like a koala and pouting like a baby because Todoroki had told her she talked too much.
"Himiko, I'm sure he didn't mean it." I looked over to Todoroki.
"I think it's good though it's a sign she's happy... I think." Todoroki said.
"See, he wasn't trying to insult you." I said, rubbing her back a bit.

This was nice...

This was one dramatic chapter huh?

Long 1 2 ig but conpaird 2 the last one which as it turns out was a knew record its pretty short.

This was like 1188 words... not like is. I can see the number of words.

Anyway, I'm gonna be updating this slowly.

Bye-bye for now, sugar plums

-your undevoted writer
V1NNY