WE GOT TO THIS

CHAPTER NINE

CHAPTER NINE

I walked home without a thought of what was happening around me, I just walked barefooted street to street without even realizing the distance I was moving. I got home, banged the door behind me and sat leaning on it. I really couldn't believe I had just seen Jim; he was the last person I expected to meet anywhere, the only person I wanted to see yet prayed it never happened.

Through the years, since Jim left, I badly wanted him to tell me why he threw away what we had. Somehow I reached a time and told myself, it couldn't have been Rita, there must have been something else but I couldn't figure out what it quite was. That query had my head ache for years and the only person who could solve it was the one who created it.

Sited there in my quiet room, I thought that maybe I should walk back to Sammy's and just face him, make him tell me why he would just dump the best thing that would happen to anyone, our love! I wanted to ask him if he had been sleeping quite well after what he did to us. I wanted to make him feel all the pain he had caused me for the past four years, I wanted to tell him he had ruined my life, and I wanted to ask him if he was proud of the man he chose to be. Rage suddenly filled my heart, I just wanted answers so bad. I got up with such spleen; I opened the door only to find Ethan standing there, about to knock.

"Ethan!" I said

"Heather. I know we had said we would meet in the evening but I really wanted to talk to you" he said. I just looked at him; I just didn't know if I could talk to him anymore, my head was then so messed up!

"Are you going somewhere?" he asked. I exhaled, somehow relieving myself of the heat inside.

"No, I was...come in" I said. He walked in and sat on the bed as I closed the door.

"I was going to ask where you were going without shoes but..." he said and we both chuckled. I walked to where he was and just sat beside him. For some time we were quiet, we didn't even look at each other; we just sat there in silence.

"Heather, Isabella and I, we got back together" he said and I just kept quiet, not because I didn't want to say something, I just couldn't open my lips. I knew Ethan and Isabella got back together that day I saw them kissing but I just didn't want to believe it was true, I kept telling myself, it couldn't have been something.

"Say something" said Ethan

"What do you want me to say Ethan! Do you want me to congratulate you? Okay, congs for getting back together with your ex" I said with this frustration.

"Hey, don't be rude about it" he said

"You would rather have me be what? You fucked me, said you loved me and in no time you're kissing your ex"

"You just left me pensive after opening my heart to you, you ignored me, my calls, my texts, I even walked down here, knocked so hard but you just acted like you didn't hear anything, you left me out there."

"I needed time to sort things out"

"Sort what out, it was a simple decision, you had to love me back or not, you didn't need to make me feel like a fool to inform me that you didn't feel the way I did about you"

"It is not that Ethan"

"Then what is it"

"I don't heal as quickly as you do. Love messed up my life and if you think I would just walk straight back into it, you didn't understand anything I told you."

"I did understand everything you told me, that's why I know that love had nothing to do with messing your life up, you messed yourself up. You do silly things and just use your heartbreak as an excuse. You just use a break up that happened four years ago to get sympathy for doing all the shit you do." He said and then just walked out of the room, banging the door on his way out.