The Diary Of A Creative Boy

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Hey there, my friend. Let me talk about something real today. It is about family, the people who are supposed to have my back no matter what, right? But what happens when they don’t? When I am putting in all this effort to maintain relationships with family members who could not care less about me? It is like chasing after ghosts, expecting them to suddenly turn around and give a damn.

Listen, I get it. I was taught from day one that family is everything. But what they don’t tell me is that sometimes, my family isn’t really there. They might despise me, ignore me, or just not want anything to do with me. And yet, there I am, showing up, trying to make conversation about Aunt Susie or Cousin Mike. It is exhausting, isn’t it? It is like banging my head against a wall, hoping it will turn into a door.

Here’s the thing, I am not a child anymore. I know how this looks. I can feel the awkward vibes at family gatherings, the chilly reception, the polite but distant smiles. So why do I keep doing it? Why keep chasing after people who clearly don’t value my presence?

It is time to reclaim my self-respect. It is time to stop wasting my precious time and energy on folks who do not reciprocate my efforts. I deserve better than that. I deserve to live my life authentically, surrounded by people who love and appreciate me for who I am.

And hey, if I am worried about feeling lonely or missing out on family moments, I can remind myself that there are still plenty of opportunities to connect. Funerals, weddings, reunions, they’re all there. I don’t have to completely cut ties if I don’t want to. But what I do need to do is prioritize my own happiness and well-being.

So, let’s make a pact, shall we? Let me promise myself that I won’t chase after those who don’t want to be caught. Let me invest my time and love where it’s truly appreciated. Because life is too short to waste on people who don’t see my worth. It is time to embrace the family I choose—the friends who feel like family, the kindred spirits who lift me up instead of bringing me down.

I’ve got this. It is time to step into my own light and shine brightly, surrounded by those who truly cherish me.