Warning:
This chapter contains self harm.
| Shawn |
I woke up around 6. I try to fall back to sleep but I can't. I feel jealous about Ali. I have had sex before, but I was drunk. Yes. I got drink when I was 16. It meant nothing, but Ali sounded sincere about her first. Whatever.
I soon fall back to sleep.
| Ali |
I woke up at 9:30 and saw Shawn sleeping peacfully. He looked so cute. I decide to get ready and then wake him up. Today he's telling his fans about us... he's bringing me on stage too.
I pick out a dark pink shirt with a music note and some black ripped shorts, and black and gold studded shoes, as my outfit.
I leave my hair down, with a flower crown, and dasie earings.
I get out of the shower and get dressed, and it's already 10:15. I decide to wake up Shawn since the event is at 11:30. Today they have their performances and everything, and than a meet and greet afterwards. I am kind of having mixed feelings about the fans. I know I'm gonna get hate, but I don't know how well I am going to take it.
" Baby, wake up. It's 10:15 and the event starts at 11:30. You have to be down there by 11:00."
" Okay, I'm up. "
He goes and picks out his outfit and gets in the shower.
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He comes out in a Navy blue t-shirt and jeans, and his blue vans.
He looks good.
It's already 10:54, so we have to hurry.
Shawn and I head towards the event, and get ready.
" Are you excited? " he asks me.
" of course." I lie.
I'm actually nervous as hell. I know I'm about to get hate. And I know it's gonna tear me apart.
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Skipping to Ali going on stage
" Next, I wanna bring out a special guest, Alison. " I hear Shawn say
I walk out really slowly..
" Hi Guys. I'm Alison Shayne, some of you may know me, I'm a YouTuber. "
Most of them cheer and some of them tell me I'm pretty.
" She's also my girlfriend" Shawn adds.
Most of the crowd says how happy they are for us.
A few remarks caught me by surprise, like :
" ew get off the stage slut. "
" why would Shawn pick you? "
" I see your scars. "
" you're so ugly, kill yourself. "
I run off the stage as fast as I can and I hear everyone cheer as I left.
I run to the hotel room and go into the bathroom. I find my old blade. I don't know why, but it's always been in my makeup bag. My bestfriend.
Ugly
Cut
Slut
Cut
Worthless
Cut
Fat
Cut
Weird
Cut
I then hear the hotel door open. Shit. It must be Shawn.
| Shawn |( finally )
After Alison runs off stage, I have a feeling. A bad feeling. She seemed really upset.
" if you were my real fans, you'd just be happy for me. "
And with that I run to the hotel room.
When I get in the hotel room, Ali isn't in there.
I hear movement in the bathroom. Shit. I know what she Is doing.
I try to go in, but it's locked.
" Ali let me in. Now. "
" N-no. " she stutters.
I find one of her pins, and unlock it. There she is, with blood trickling down her arm. My heart breaks.
" Ali. Don't listen to them. You are perfect and you mean so much to me, please stop doing this. "
" Shawn, it's hard. I'm not good with hate. I can't take it. It breaks me." She respondes.
" come on. Let's get you cleaned up baby. "
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| Ali |
" thank you Shawn. "
" Babygirl, make sure you tell me whenever you feel like doing this. I- I love you. " he says.
Woah. He loves me back?
" Shawn, I love you so much. "
Wow. He's my protector. And my boyfriend.
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Sorry if this chapter was really depressing. But aw, they said I love you.
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