I got up and the sun wasn't out yet I checked my phone to find a reminder and a thing on my calendar, I ignored them being the lazy person I am I just wanted the time I looked at the clock and frowned, "Ugh, it's only 4:30 why am I up so early I only get up early when something is happening. Cathryn why are you up?" I talk to myself. "The reminders and calendars whats that about?" I checked to see but nothing showed up." thats just a little weird." I laugh and collapse on the bed. I woke up a few hours later to my mother making pancakes. Okay now something was up
"Hey honey are you ready for today?" She asked with a huge smile on her face. "Mom whats today?" Her smile dropped."Honey I paid a lot of money for you to leave today." Now she was just crazy. "Leave to go where mom?" Worry in my voice. "Honey don't you remember your going to Los Angels for a few months because it was your 18th birthday and thats what you wanted, Cathryn is something wrong?" she looked a bit concerned. "Oh no mom everything is fine I just couldn't remember what was happening today. When dose my plane leave because I still need to pack for 3 months." My mom chuckled." Not for a few more hours in fact we are going to stop by your dad so he can say goodbye. He is so proud of you Cathryn he just can't believe that your going to college." Tears forming in her eyes. Before she burst out into tears I ran upstairs to my room I grabbed a suitcase and threw in some clothes knowing that I would just buy clothes in LA.
"MOM!" I yelled "WHERES MY NERVANA SHIRT I CAN'T FIND IT!" I travel no where with out it. "Honey your wearing it." She said laughing I looked down and my cheeks turned red. "Are you ready to leave yet?" I looked around my room one last time knowing I might never sleep in my bed or have little dance parties or look up at the stars at night through my glass celling knowing I may never see my friends again or smell my moms cooking or my dads coffee he would always poured me a cup of, or my parents laughter or the pictures on the wall of when I was younger with my older twin brothers Ethan and Grayson once they left to join this magcon group I haven't seen or talked to them. I slowly walked into Ethan's room and sat on his bed a tear ran down my face I whipped it away before my mom could see it. I walked out not wanting memories to start I walked into Grayson's room and fell to the floor in tears we lost Grayson last year to cancer and I think out of all of us it affected me the most I know I said before they went but it was just Ethan and I know he is busy but really he's the only one I can feel safe around. My mom came in and sat next to me with my head on her chest I cried while sher comforted me. "Honey I know this was hard for you to do, but you have to remember that we all miss him. You know he would want you to do this, honey he loved you and we knew this would happen. We knew we always couldn't be the happy go lucky family everybody wants that wouldn't happen. God wanted to take someone from us and it just so happened to be your brother Gray. Cat you need to get over this it is getting ridiculous it's been a year now and you still cry at the sound of his name, or the sight of your brother, or when we re-did his room you protested and sat there so we left it." She got up and left the house as I followed her.
