How Can I Not Love You

We meet again

Selena's Pov :

As he grabbed my waist and started kissing me, all I could feel was pure desire and lust. Never have I ever imagined of kissing someone so passionately in my life. His lips were warm and soft.  They parted slightly, allowing my tongue to slip inside.Our bodies pressed together heatedly against the wall, breathing heavily as our lips pressed together.  I could taste our shared breath, feel the thud of our combined heartbeat as he pull me closer almost removing all the distances between us.
The smell of his perfume was dizzying, butterflies dancing in my stomach as he grabbed my neck with one of his hands and the other hand cupped my face. I was shivering in excitement as it was my first kiss. I pulled him even more closer grabbing his hair with my hand and my other hand was sliding slowly up and down through his back as I was so much eager to feel his perfectly toned body. All i could imagine at that moment that How would it be to feel his skin against mine? But as soon as I started to unbutton his shirt ,he pulled away.

"I'm so sorry Miss, we shouldn't have done that, I got carried away".

"W-what?? What the hell did you just say?"

As soon as those words came out of my mouth I suddenly couldn't feel my feet. All I could see was darkness. My head was spinning,  I couldn't even stand properly, when I heard his voice again.

"Hey are you OK? What happened?"

Then what?? I passed out. I didn't know what happened after that moment, but when I opened my eyes again I saw my best friend,Hailey.

"Hey Sel, are you OK?"

"Ugh ! My head. "

"Oh babe! You got a headache, why the hell did you get drunk like crazy yesterday?"

Whis this damn headache and Hailey's words , the reality suddenly hit me. I remembered all the crazy things I've done the day before. And out of everything,  I remembered the kiss, no sorry, my first kiss with the most handsome guy in this planet.

"Hales, do you know what I did yesterday?"

"Don't tell me about it Sel, you passed out in the arms of a hot and sexy man, God! He was so handsome dude. But You know what, he was also a pure gentleman, I was dancing in the floor,but when you passed out   I noticed you and asked for his help  so he dropped us in my apartment. He was so sweet Sel.By the way, why were you with him in the first place?"

"Hailey, please don't get angry, but we kind of kissed."

"WHATTT ! "

"Sorry Hales! I was so drunk and I don't know what got into me. I'm never like that kind of person,  who would randomly kiss a guy. But I don't know why I did this yesterday "

"OMG Sel ! Why didn't you get his number? It was your first kiss with such a handsome guy dude, I'm so happy for you babe!"

"No Hales, I didn't want my first kiss to be like that. I wanted it to be with someone I love and who would love me too, not with some random guy."

"Cmon Sel! He was not a random guy,  he was the most sexy man and I can say he is rich too. His clothes were Branded and he had a BMW car. But, the main fact is finally there's someone, who gave you butterflies in your stomach except that stupid Liam."

Sudden the reality hit me. Today I've a meeting with Mr. Lockwood,  his sister and her would be husband, Liam, the love of my life. After so many years I have to face him again,what am I going to do Now?