Rosalie's Journal
November 15th, 2018
Hey guys! A lot has changed since the last time I wrote to you. Sorry for taking so long, but you know how things get in this family. But anyway, I'm in a weird spot right now. One of those spots where Mom would tell us to keep the faith. But it's hard. Money's hard right now. Grandma Harriet is looking closer to death by the minute. I didn't know her the way you did Ma but I have a hard time thinking she'd want to die this slowly. Dying: a motif of my life story it seems. I can see it all over her. Anya's hanging in there as much as she can. Things are basically falling apart in every direction. But you left us the house. You left us the house and I have a job so it could be worse. You know? Trying to stay positive here. I miss you guys. Five years is a long time for a child to go without their parents. We miss you. I miss you.
I miss you taking care of me, Ma. Dad, you did your best, and I love you for that. But Ma knew things I needed before I ever needed them. Knew exactly what to say and when to say it. And I miss that. I need that now. I've been so exhausted I can barely stand to work anymore. My head starts pounding like metal music at random times. I might be fighting something but it's lasted for days now. Migraines maybe, but I even felt my hands go numb when it happened this morning. If something doesn't change I'll see the doctor, but I really wish you were here. It would all be better if you were here.
Then there's Olivia and I. Another weird spot to be in. Right now it seems to me that she needs more than I can give. Here I am raising my sister, playing nurse for my grandmother, and working a shit job, and she... she's mad I don't talk to her more often. I'm juggling plates and she's upset I didn't use my foot to shoot her a text. But I should have known better. She's had it pretty easy her whole life it seems. She says she doesn't come from money, but you don't have to come from money to have it pretty easy. Or at least easier than this. Her parents are still alive and she's not responsible for a kid she didn't choose to have. She gets to be 23, you know. I don't get that luxury.
There's a lot she doesn't understand right now. At first, it didn't make a difference that we basically come from two different worlds but it's beginning to take its toll on me. Okay, deep breath. Anya is calling me so I have to go. I hope you guys are resting peacefully. Look out for us while you're up there okay? Thanks guys.
I love you so much,
Rose
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