Night Terrors (Poem)

Night Terrors Because Of You.

I used to love going to sleep.

Until I started having night terrors.

Night terrors that remind me of the day I spent with you.

The day when I gave you a special part of me, but you treated it like it was nothing.

You just wanted to add me to your list.

A list of girls you were able to touch.

But I really tried to make us work again; I wanted us to work again. But you didn't want us to work again.

You just wanted my body and not me.

You didn't see me anymore like you first saw me.

You didn't care for me anymore like you first cared for me.

You didn't look at me anymore like you first looked at me.

And still, since that day, I can't stop thinking about you.

And I hate it.

I hate that you have a hold on me. I hate that even though you did me so wrong, my heart still craves you.

How it craves for your touch again.

How it craves for your attention again.

How it craves for your body again.

But I know it shouldn't.

And I wish I knew how to make it stop.

Because after that night, instead of checking up on me, you checked up on other girls.

You created my night terrors.

And when they get so bad, I have to get up and force my attention on something else just to try and go back to sleep.

Sometimes it works.

Other times I just stay up through the night constantly trying to force my mind on anything but you.

Because you haunt me; that day haunts me.

And I wish I knew how to get rid of the terrors that remind me of you.

To get my mind to stop thinking of you.

To get my heart to stop craving you.

Because I used to love going to sleep.

Until I spent that day with you.

Hannah