You're not so bad

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Tw : sexual abuse

"Oh I will be calling home Amy"
Amy froze as the colour drained from her face.
" if you are going to be rude and disrespectful, you are going to face the consequences" ms Lynch added.
I could see the Amy was uncomfortable but she didn't say anything instead she simply nodded and slowly made her way out of the office , leaving me and ms lynch alone.

"Ms smith welcome back I am so sorry I heard the news"
My heart rate picked up , how did she know ? I didn't tell anyone about the baby.
"If you need anything at all don't be afraid to ask" ms smith smiled at me and I nodded.

*******

Detention time finally came around and for some reason I volunteered to supervise it , maybe it's because I don't want to go home , where all of my pain is.
I wasn't expecting many people in detention today as it was only the first day back after summer.

I was right as the tardy bell rang only one student walked in , the tall skinny girl from earlier Amy.
She didn't say anything and just sat down.
"Since it's the first day back I know you don't have any work to do amy so I want you to write 'I will not be disrespectful' one hundred times okay? When you're finished you can leave"
I started calmly trying not to be too stern. I handed Amy a sheet of paper and went back to my desk .

Before I knew it 45 minutes had passed and Amy began packing up
"Finished?"
I got no reply instead Amy slammed the sheet of paper down and walked straight out . I looked at the crumpled paper and gasped Amy had filled the page but with simple "fuck yous"
There was at least a hundred "fuck you" written neatly on the page. The crumpled page sat on my desk as I ran out of my classroom in hopes of catching the rude teen but she was nowhere to be seen.

******
After a long day in school I finally got home , I didn't know how to feel . A sense of dread arose the minute I pulled into my driveway and seen my husbands Range Rover.
I hated myself for feeling such dread for a man I once loved so much .
The love was no longer there , even before the baby it was like something switched inside of him , one day he was ok then the next he treated me like a piece of trash.

I took a deep breath and walked in
"Where's dinner?" The man who had been home for hours asked as I struggled to carry my bags in from the car. A look of disbelief crossed my face
"Stephen , I just finished work , you have been here for hours you could have figured something out"
I tried to keep my composure.
"Now listen here jenny , I am a MAN it's not my fucking job to put food on the table , get into the fucking kitchen and start cooking" he replied through gritted teeth after banging his fist on the kitchen table.

A cold  sweat washed over me , for the first time ever I was properly scared of my husband , yes he has been like this before but not to the point I'm scared of him.
To save myself I decided to listen , I dropped my bags and headed to the kitchen to make some dinner.

******
"How was your day?" I asked over the eerily silent kitchen table trying to make conversation.
"Fine"
"That's good , my day was tough today , there was one student today who was really testing me-"
"CANT WE JUST EAT IN SILENCE" the man infront of me shouted , pieces of chewed up food flying out of his mouth along with his loud voice.

My hunger completely vanished after that , I cleaned up my food and decided to head to bed , Stephen's energy drained me . I got changed into my silk pyjamas and climbed under the covers.

As I slowly felt myself drift off to sleep I felt a hand wrap around my waist and small kisses on my neck.
" Stephen no , I'm not in the mood"
"You're never in the fucking mood" he scoffed as his hand got lower and lower
"Stephen-"
"Shut the fuck up and take it like a good girl"
What was happening , I said no . He didn't listen. I said no , his hand continued going lower until it was under my silk pyjama bottoms. I said no , his lips suctioned to my neck . I said no , he forced his body  into mine. I said no.